Self-Improvement and Interesting Knowledge

Depending on what you believe, and depending on some of the reports that you may have heard about, read about, or seen on a video, it would seem like inner alchemy is at odds with some of the things that Near Death Experiencers are reporting.

Sometimes, especially with the more popular cases that people are talking about, people that have had near-death experiences, or people that report pre-birth memories, say that we have agreed to come here, that this life has purpose and meaning, that we made a conscious choice at some point to come to this life.

People that have these kinds of near-death experiences, or people that might report having met certain angelic like figures, that report having memories before their physical birth, might say that they have been told, that they feel deep within themselves, that they came here for a reason, that they chose. This of course implies in a way that there are reasons for the struggles and the pain of this material world, but at the same time there is this feeling of not needing to question, but to just accept the fact that we chose to be here, to trust in higher authority.

Along with these messages and these experiences, some may report that they have been told by certain voices or angelic like figures, that what they need to do is to learn to love. Interestingly, while there might be this message in these experiences of purpose and the need to develop more loving ways, there is seldom any mention of the need for self-development.

Such ideas and experiences might seem to go completely against some of the basic precepts of inner alchemy, that I have written about and that I have discussed in my videos. If for example, we came here for a reason, if we chose to be here, then how does this relate to the way of inner alchemy, which states that we should overcome this place, fight against the oppressive density and gravity of this place, overcome the Archon.

If there is a purpose for our being here, then what is that purpose? Often times, in accordance with what some of the people that have had such experiences say, it seems that we are not meant to know, like it is somehow above us, beyond us, at least the conscious part of us. It is sort of implied and sometimes stated outright that this material world, our physical lives, are kind of like a school for us to learn, but the nature of what we are to learn can sometimes be a vague thing. For the most part we may be told that we should learn about love, that love is the key to whatever it is that we are supposed to learn to do here.

If this is the case, then where does the Archon fit in? The way of inner alchemy says that this is a world that must be overcome, and yet such near-death experiences, such angelic figures, and some pre-birth knowledge, seems to oppose these notions in a way. It would seem like inner alchemy is trying to spoil the game, like they are saying that one should walk away from this pre-destiny. And as I have mentioned in the past, inner alchemy takes it one step further by saying that the conscious part of us, that part of you that is now reading this article, that awake part in this here now moment that is truly alive and independent at this nexus point in time, this part, it did not agree to anything, it did not agree to come down here and participate in this life.

This notion of agreeing or not agreeing in accordance with the direct perceptions of inner alchemists’, is a complex one and I go into great detail on this, every nuanced point of it, in the book, The Way of the Death Defier. And I would highly recommend that you read that book if you are interested in the near-death experience, the energetic truth of the life-and-death cycle, what happens after we physically die, what final death and the Black Sun are, and how it is possible for a practitioner to defy even this final death and attain immortality.

In that book in particular, I say that inner alchemists take the stance that they did not agree to participate in any life game, they did not agree to come here, and in accordance with their seeing, their direct perceptions of the world beyond this physical dimension, they know that what they truly are, the individuality that is theirs now, is something that they gained after physical birth, and not before it. As I said, I do explain this in detail in the book mentioned above, but in essence what it means to the inner alchemist is that, if there was no true individuality before physical birth, then the core of who they are now did not choose anything.

In this short article I cannot explain all of the nuance of this, but I will try to answer some of these questions about the contradictions between inner alchemy and what some are reporting in near-death experiences, in pre-birth memories, or in contact with what some might refer to as angelic voices, angelic beings, or godlike entities.

So first off, inner alchemists’ say that this is not a game that they chose and that directly contradicts many of the beliefs and the experiences of some people. But they do agree in a sense with the notion that we have come here for a reason, that there is a greater purpose to the material reality and the life that we are living now. Through their own direct experiences, which are highly conscious and aware experiences where inner alchemists engage in something I referred to as seeing or something that I have referred to as the way of the projectionist, they have in these very sober moments been able to experience directly, to see, that what might be referred to as a higher order of being is indeed using this material world, this ‘playground’ let us call it, for a greater purpose. But inner alchemists as true individuals did not agree to this game, so they are not willing to play that game, they want out of the playground basically.

And yet, one could say that inner alchemy is not about truancy, it is not about running out of the school playground and escaping altogether. In a sense, inner alchemy could be said to be more like a truancy officer, a truancy officer for the individual anyway. Inner alchemy insists that the only gift that you will ever get in this life is that individuality that is yours at this moment point. It says that individuality in many ways is a kind of accident, a little complication from the playground that was built by higher authority, a little quirk in the energetic design of the place. Inner alchemy says that you should take that accidental gift and run with it, steal it, and once you have done that, only when you have done that, when you have truly taken it as your own, then you should escape the playground altogether, and let those supposed higher forces continue their game without you.

So, because of the need to first steal that accidental gift, inner alchemists are the truancy officer for those that seek individuality, in that they often insist on the fact that this little playground that they did not agree to come to is a school. They insist that this place must become a real school for all those that seek true individuality, and true freedom. They say that this is the only school that counts for the freedom seeking individuals that are stuck in this place, and the only way to really get out is to come to terms with the idea that you have to get yourself out by looking at this place, this playground, as a challenge to overcome, as a school of sorts to be aced.

You can think of it like this, in accordance with what some might be experiencing, and some might be reporting, at least the way that it is being reported, and this is crucial, it would seem like the fact that we are here, and the act of being here on this material earth, is as it should be. It is like there is no need to try, no need to think about life and living overtly too much, because a greater force is guiding this time and there is in essence no need to try very hard at anything. There is no need to try or think about it do much because you are in the right place at the right time, you chose to be here, and there is a greater force taking care of you, so just go with it, go with the flow, you cannot go wrong.

Inner alchemists then are sort of like little sticks in the mud, nasty truancy officers in that they want to ruin the party, they want everybody to get out of the playground and wake up, get out of the arcade and go back to school, wake up to the fact that they are supposed to be in school, true school, instead of unconsciously frolicking in the playground.

Some of these people that have had very legitimate, very real and valid memories and experiences, sometimes insist that love is all there is. In trying to explain to others the nature of their experiences, they may say something along the lines of, focus on love, more love, if you can do that everything else will take care of itself.

In this case again, it would seem like inner alchemists are being little disturbers that contradict such notions of devotion and the feeling of love, of ease. They want to ruin the party, they want people to stop thinking that everything is easy peasy, and this seems to contradict all of the legitimate experiences that many people are having.

But in order to understand what is going on here, and understand the point of view of inner alchemy, we must understand the nature of what is taking place in some of these experiences, we must understand the nature of the seeing of inner alchemy, and by doing so understand the nature of the message and the wisdom of such heavenly experiences.

Certainly, the nature of these experiences is very complicated, there is an incredible amount of nuance involved here, having to do with the true nature of our existence as an individual. Such as, when do you become an individual? Who are these forces that are creating this environment we call physical reality? Is their purpose truly our purpose? Or another way to say this would be, could it be that the purpose of our existence is far more complicated than black-and-white answers, the kind of simplistic answers that we are used to hearing. Could it be that our ‘purpose’ for being here has nuance and complication, that also takes into account an inherent need by the individual, to push the boundaries of themselves and their environment in every way possible. A nuance that insists that the individual should challenge even the very nature of the forces that are supposedly trying to guide them.

Some that are able to perceive deeply, might be able to understand that certain ‘greater’ or larger aspects of themselves, did indeed participate in certain choices made, and that these choices have placed them in the physical circumstances that they find themselves in now. But the individual that is here now, this individual is unique, indeed must be unique for such supposed purposes to truly be able to unfold correctly. This individual must be free of memory and burden, it must be a unique start therefore for each and every individual life, and moreover, this individual must have a chance to free itself, it must be given the possibility to fight to go beyond any school curriculum, no matter how beautiful the school or the playground might be.

Without this unique start, and without this ability to have a chance to break out of any bonds or cycles of being, then that individual cannot grow, or at the very least you could say that it can only grow so much, and only in a certain way, which in the end is no real growth at all from the inner alchemists’ point of view.

This is a complex environment, this little playground, and the forces that have brought it about are infinitely complicated as well. Some of them are interested in stifling growth. Not all of these forces can be said to be good from the human point of view, and such dark forces are interested in the ingestion, the eating, the using the playground for their own purpose you might say. There are other forces that are interested in growth and evolution, they are interested in freedom and are open to any possibilities that the individual can manage to make happen, they want the genius in humanity to flourish.

The nature of these experiences, whether near-death, contact with angelic like beings, or pre-birth memories of any kind, is very complex. Interpretation can sometimes be impossible at first, and even the reports of what has happened to some can be incredibly difficult to relate to others, because words will never be complex enough to describe the true depth of what such experiences are all about.

To put it in simple terms, the nature of these co-mingling forces, those that want to help and those that want to stifle and consume, means that for the inner alchemists at least, there is only one possible answer. For them, this material earth goes from being a fun little playground and instead becomes a savage little garden, a place where they are grown and modified like bio-engineered wheat, one life after the next, one crop to the next, each life creating better wheat, better growth, and for some that have agreed to put this garden together, that have participated in the growing of this garden, the wheat ‘is’ food.

But, if these are legitimate experiences, and those forces contacted are indeed trying to help the wheat, those forces that want to help us evolve and become free, then what are they trying to say? This is a difficult thing to try to understand because these experiences and these pre-birth memories are very much like a dream, in that they are happening in other dimensional positions. Just like a dream is sometimes hard to decipher, being that the symbols and the things experienced sometimes represent and involve other things, deeper things, such near death and angelic experiences are even more complicated than dreams most often, and they have inner qualities and challenges that are sometimes ‘lost in translation’.

This savage little garden as I call it, is savage, because we all suffer here to one degree or another, it is indeed a relative issue, but we all suffer. You might say that inner alchemists take the stance of the Buddhists that say that all life is suffering.

So, one way to overcome some of the suffering is to understand that you are indeed a graceful being, you are in a state of grace because of the fact that you are graceful, you have been created in grace, in the image of God, in the image of ‘all that is’, and this is graceful. Understanding this fact could alleviate much of that suffering, so it is indeed great help to understand the nature of that grace that is yours now. Many of these near-death experiences and pre-birth memories try to make this point, and as such they are helpful, I believe that this is why many of these experiences tend to take on such qualities of inner grace and love.

If you are told that love is the one thing, and this is the one thing that you should work on, then it is indeed possible for you to alleviate much of this struggle in this savage little garden through the pursuit of love. But, the little stick in the mud, the inner alchemist, says that in the savage garden you are going to forget, you are going to forget about this love thing, you are going to forget about the true nature of love and about grace.

In the interpretation of these experiences, and in the living, the actual living in this savage garden, we all forget, and we all make blunders in perception once we are back here in this material place. As such, it is very easy to skew meanings and the nature of action going forward after such revelations. For example, there are some that can fail to understand the nature of such experiences and skew these ideas, so that grace and gracefulness become an excuse to not try, to not even think about it, because to them grace means that they can just slack off. Some might understand the point of love during these experiences, or when they first hear about others having such experiences, but it is easy to assume that somehow love is there for you no matter what, which it is, but this does not mean that you can just give up, that you can just turn into some unconscious thing and wander through life without meaning or effort in some way.

To love and to live in grace is not about pretending that you are in some playground without ever needing to worry about anything. It is instead about facing life had on, about focusing on the right things, and about learning to develop an unrelenting, unbending focus on what truly matters. And this cannot happen without a great deal of effort on your part. This is the challenge, the true challenge, a true school to teach you about this challenge of this kind of focus, and as such this life that we are living in this place is the greatest adventure possible, and it is indeed a game that is being played on a cosmic level.

What all this boils down to is acting and participating in the act of becoming more and more an individual, a conscious and aware being, a being that is learning to focus their conscious attention. If you are not doing this, then you are not growing in a certain sense, or another way to say this is that you are growing in a different way, you are growing like a plant. You are either consciously directing your attention on grace, or you are not, and in that case you are never going to find that grace that you seek. Instead, without this conscious focus all you will be part of is an unconscious life, the life of the plant. Without conscious focus you are just a plant, wheat to be sown in the savage garden.

The individual fights to pull its roots out of the ground and walk away from any environment that it does not choose to be in. The difference between vegetative ignorance and active participation is the focus of attention, the deliberate and unrelenting focus of conscious attention, instead of looking away and not caring.

In near-death experiences, angelic contacts, and pre-birth memories, at least from the point of view of inner alchemy, you are given a challenge, that challenge is to focus on your grace, and to focus on your love, true love, something I refer to as agape.

To do that you need to focus on such things, and you must constantly fight the gravity and the density of this material earth, of this savage little garden, that makes you want to forget to consciously focus. To forget that challenge is not to be graceful. In other words, the real grace that is being experienced in those legitimate near-death experiences is not about forgetting, and saying who cares or there is no fight out there, because we live in a perfect place with nothing to worry about. It is instead about focusing on grace and focusing on it with unrelenting power. That is the challenge.

If you can do that, then that grace will be upon you, but only if you can keep that focus and that is the nature of the challenge, and this is so because that unrelenting focus is much harder than you imagine, therefore maintaining that focus on grace or on love in this savage little garden is far harder than some would imagine.

Inner alchemy says that you should get back to school, get out of the arcade that is keeping you focused on silly little things in the savage garden. The truancy officers of inner alchemy say that you should at least wake up a little bit to the fact that this is a school and a challenge, a great adventure really of the most amazing kind. They say that you should wake up a little because if you do not you are missing out on the greatest joy possible for you. Inner alchemy says that you are not a plant, that you are not some wheat to be grown, generation after generation, in order to benefit a game that you did not agree to.

Inner alchemy says that many of those near-death experiences, pre-birth memories, and those events where angelic like forces are contacted are indeed legitimate, and that the nature of those experiences reveals the true nature of the challenge of existence. But those challenges are not about turning away and forgetting because supposedly there is nothing to worry about, they say that this is the con of the Archon. They say that life is instead about facing the savage little garden head on, and as you do so you learn to develop unrelenting focus on the true gracefulness of your being and on true love, agape.

If you can maintain that unrelenting focus, which is the true challenge of the game, then you can pull those roots out of the ground and walk away and be neither wheat or chaff for anyone or anything.

As I said, there is great nuance to all of this, and explaining it, explaining the nature of your psyche, your soul, biological death, true death as one faces the Black Sun, well, all of this requires more space than I have here. To that end I do recommend the book mentioned earlier, the way of the death defier. There you will find many of the answers that you seek, and you will also find ways to develop that unrelenting focus that is the true nature of the challenge, the true nature of the game.

Depending on a person’s belief system, each individual may have a different answer to this question.

And even within the bounds of certain belief structures, there are individual ideas about what life after death if any might be like.

Here in the west many of us might believe in a heavenly realm, or a fiery hell. Many people are atheists as well, and such individuals tend to believe that once we experience biological death, we are no more, like biological machines, we just turn off and then that is the end of us. Others may have other beliefs, such as reincarnation and the belief that instead of a heaven or a hell, we pay for the consequences of our actions in a future life where such incarnations may either be positive or negative in accordance with what we have or have not done in past lives.

Often, people may be quite wide-ranging in their beliefs, and may choose to take a little bit from a large pool of belief systems. They may believe in a monotheistic kind of God, but also believe in reincarnation. Some may believe that death is the end of everything as individual beings, but they may believe that the stuff that was us is recycled in a way, that what we were, the plants, the earth, the stars) is what we go back to becoming, and in that sense, they cheat in that way that utter gloom of the atheistic finality.

Whether it is reincarnation, classical heaven and hell, atheistic finality, or any of the number of beliefs that people have about what happens after you die, these beliefs are almost always dogmatic ones.

By dogmatic I mean that in almost every case, all these beliefs are based not on personal experience but on a kind of faith in the general belief systems of the times. Few people claim to have seen past the veil of the material universe. They can only see what their physical senses can reveal to them. For that reason, most believe that such a thing, seeing what happens after death, is fundamentally an impossibility, at least for them, and as such they only have the opinion of experts in this field to rely on.

Such experts can be the clergy and the theology of the times, these experts may also be the intellectuals and the philosophers that are prominent in an era, and they may even be, at least in this modern period, the scientists, and the scientific establishment.

There is certainly nothing wrong with belief in the dogma of the time if such dogma provides hope and a sense of ease in a difficult world. And while these dogma-based belief systems are and have always been, when the human population gets large enough, the main way that people can come to terms with the hardest part of living, which is the dying, you should know that this dogmatic understanding of things is not the only way to understand the after death experience. Belief in faith and faith in belief is not the only way to know about the after death experience.


In other cultures, often times cultures that have a closer relation to the earth, there are different ways of knowing, of seeing, the after death experience. There are also different groups, different currents if you like, that while in the midst of large and well organized civilizations, practice traditions, techniques and methodologies, that try to overcome the many hindrances of dogma especially when it comes to the veil of the objective world, the world of matter, and the after death experience, that is, what happens after death.

One such current, is the way of inner alchemy. Such a current has as its main focus the intentionality of first teaching those that are part of that current how to see beyond the veil, the maya, the illusion, of the material world. Once this is possible, which could generally be referred to as being able to see, to be a seer, an Oracle, such an individual is then able to let go of dogma, let go of the established dogmatic beliefs of the times and directly perceive for themselves, what exists beyond physicality and therefore what exists after physical death.

In this video I would like to discuss briefly what these personal direct individual perceptions might be, and I say might be because each individual perception is different being that each individual is fundamentally different. We are individuals, we see differently, we can, away from physicality, perceive slightly differently, and our psychology presents us with different obstacles and allegory, and for that reason the way that we perceive such energetic truth is also highly individual and may involve all sorts of perceptive mechanisms and symbolism that must be explored and plumbed into in order to find the greater reality within the scope of the human grasp of energetic truth.


In accordance with the seeing of inner alchemist therefore, the nature of the after death experience is not something that is discovered by studying the general dogma of the times, or by believing what someone else says, even what I am saying right now. It is instead discovered through the ability to see, to perceive energy directly, which can be taught by reading a book, but that must later be used to go beyond all language so that what you know from then on is individual in nature. Once this ability to perceive directly is established, these seers, this confluence of oracles, can then come together and establish a general intentionality, that creates a current, and each individual seer can either participate or not, in accordance with their own highly individual perceptions and actions. The current that I am a part of can be termed the current of inner alchemy.

While it may seem contradictory of me to try to describe such seeing to you, being that in essence this then becomes dogmatic knowledge, sometimes the descriptions of such things, such direct perceptions by the intentionality of inner alchemy for example, can help an individual to tune into their own intuitions, their own highly individual inner feeling sense about what it is that they have somehow always known to be true deep within themselves, and in discovering this inner alignment, they can then choose as individuals to try to perceive directly themselves and after doing so, by the sheer act of such perceptions, join a current in accordance with their own individual intentions.

So, after all of that, from the inner alchemist point of view, from their direct perceptions, what happens to us after we die?

Well, from that group intentionality, from that current, the after death experience in many ways resembles what the general human collective refers to as the dreamscape, the dreamtime. If you want to know what death is like, then all you must do is begin to explore your dreams and the nature of the dreamtime environment that you are part of for a third of your life.

In the dream-scape, in that dimensional zone where dreams are a reality, a real otherworld, you are there yourself and yet you have left your physical body behind. To many, this dreamtime can be quite chaotic and for the most part forgotten, but of the things that you might remember, you might notice that there is incredible flexibility here, and in this place you may partake in many adventures where you might be yourself as you understand yourself within physical space, or you might be completely other selves, at least other instances of yourself that may take forms that may be quite different from what you may consider to be your physical being. While it is generally the case that people tend to only remember those dreams that are coherent enough for them to be perceived as a rational sequence, linear and orderly, it is also the case that many of these dreams can be so expansive and the feelings and perceptions so beyond rational possibility, that such dreams are quite often either completely forgotten, or so beyond the conscious mind that they may never be known to you.

And while it is the case that in this dream reality, perhaps when it comes to the hardest dreams to dream, those dreams that we call nightmares, there is always this sense that you can wake up and return to your physical self, and to the stability and the hardness of the objective, of the object filled world, because no matter how hard both physically and metaphorically this solid world might be, it is still a refuge from the powerful expansiveness of what you truly are and will continue to be after physical death.

With that in mind, now imagine what it might be like to enter a dream, to enter this dream verse where your individuality at times seems to be so strained, so hard to hold and identify, meaning that it can at times be so difficult to maintain your individuality, your individual identity, and then find out that you can never wake up to the physical you ever again. This is death, this is the after death experience, and at least in accordance to the current of inner alchemy, it is a highly complex affair that, like a dream, involves the exploration of quite real and very individually pertinent experiences of the most sensual nature.

Many people believe dreams to be quite ethereal, that is they do not think dreams feel as real in a way as what they considered to be physical reality, and in that sense some people might even believe that the after death experience is a relatively sensually numb one, where, like some kind of wandering phantasm, they are not able to touch or feel as much as they did when they were physically alive. But, as those that can recall dreams quite vividly will tell you, the dream experience is often made up of sensual experiences that often times far surpass anything that could be felt in the physical reality, containing both feelings, sounds, smells, tastes, and visuals that far exceed anything possible in the physical dimension.

The after death experience is a highly complex one that far surpasses any dogmatic belief, and completely redefines any idea of the linear space and time that all current dogmatic beliefs rely on so much. As such, the only way to truly perceive the nature of the after death experience is for you to personally learn to become a Seer, an Oracle, an individual who can perceive energy directly yourself.

The way of inner alchemy is a multifaceted process that involves a great deal of focus and a kind of movement that completely defies both the ar conic mob mind of the times, and any notions of rationality and purely three dimensional mechanical based logic. In order to try to reveal the complexity of these motions, these inner motions of inner alchemy, I have put together a trilogy of course books that reveal the nature of this intentionality without any of the complex symbology and cipher that is usually found when this current is examined.

If you are interested in learning more about the nature of the after death experience and about how inner alchemists fight for immortality, then I recommend the book, The way of the death defier

To get the full picture and the background information needed to understand the way of inner alchemy, which includes the nature of the energetic way, energetic truth, about projecting and moving beyond three dimensions, what the ghost in the machine is, how to see energy directly, and about how inner alchemists create the philosopher’s stone and use that energy to defy all archonic control, then I would recommend the full course book trilogy, which includes, The Magnum Opus, The Way of the Projectionist, and The Way of the Death Defier.