Self-Improvement and Interesting Knowledge

The journey of life is marked by profound transitions. It’s in these moments of change that we are called to look inward and understand our place in the world. This page is designed to guide you on a journey of inner exploration, offering a unique opportunity to reflect on your personal evolution. As you answer the questions and engage with the material, you’ll discover insights that resonate deeply with your own experience of growth, purpose, and spiritual awakening. Unlock your personal path to transformation and explore the deeper meaning behind the changes you sense in yourself and the world around you.

Discover Your Inner Sense of Change

Before you read the article, take a moment to answer these questions designed to help you explore your own feelings about the cycles of life, growth, and transformation that are now upon us. While these questions may seem relatively simple at first glance, they are in fact gateways to a much deeper exploration; an invitation to delve into feelings and insights you may not have fully examined before.

These reflections are incredibly important as we move into times of great change. Each question asks you to pause and truly consider your inner experience. To help you get the most from this process, extra space is provided for you to expand on your thoughts and emotions. You might find it helpful to write these reflections in a journal or a dedicated space, allowing you to revisit and deepen your understanding over time.

The answers you discover here could reveal subtle signs of your own readiness for transformation and help you connect with truths that lie beneath surface appearances. Take your time, be honest with yourself, and prepare to uncover insights that will enrich your journey as you explore the full article.

After you have answered these questions, a full article will be revealed. This article is designed to help you explore and answer many of the questions you may have raised within yourself. It will offer insights that can guide your own inner investigations and feelings during this time of transition. These explorations may even reveal ways in which you are unknowingly preparing yourself for a much deeper journey; a journey that could transform your understanding of life and your place within it!

1. Life often moves through cycles of growth and challenge. How aware are you of these cycles in your life or the world?

2. Do you feel that you or others repeat the same challenges or patterns without clear escape?

3. Have you ever felt a strong pull toward something greater than your current life situation?

4. How often do you feel disengaged or uninterested in ego conflicts and superficial daily battles?

5. Do you desire a deeper meaning or purpose beyond traditional roles or survival?

6. How ready are you to let go of old limits and explore new ways of being?

7. Do you sense you could move beyond old cycles and discover a new horizon?

7 comments

  1. Hmmm, I don’t think the quiz button worked. I took the quiz and then hit the button to reveal results but instead of revealing any results, it just revealed the rest of the article and the button changed to say “Hide Article”. In any case, great article and I love particularly the discussion of unity. I do believe (to paraphrase Charles Eisenstein) that we are moving out of the story of separation and are in a space between stories right now but moving into a story, collectively as humanity, of interbeing. Unity!

    1. Sorry Elena, I didn’t mean to imply that the quiz revealed information about your particular answers, but that it revealed general truths about coming changes, so that then you could examine your answers in light of these revelations.
      Yes, I would have to agree with you, we do seem to be in a period of great transition, a shift from one kind of world to another to another. We are living in what Sir Austen Chamberlain would call, the curse of living in interesting times.
      But these are our times, and this is our story, and as such we are the ones to write it by being alive and awake within it, fully conscious (inhabiting our consciousness fully) as Gurdjieff would say, so that we can become the authors of this unfolding tale.

  2. Hi John,

    I have a question about The Way of the Death Defier.

    For months I’ve been using the techniques from the book, including the statement beginning with “I am a creature…” This has done exactly what it is supposed to. My perceptions are shifting and I have access to greater power in the present moment point. But some very interesting emotional experiences—for lack of a better term—have come up as I’ve reordered my logos in this way.

    For some of these emotions I feel the most powerful alchemical action I can take is to express them.

    I’m sharing an example of one such expression below.

    Forgive this indulgence. It is not long and I suspect it is something you experienced in your own way perhaps. It is a prose poem you might say that emerged spontaneously the other night. I am sharing it here because it struck me as I wrote that I was expressing my audacious desire, or perhaps insistence, that I have my cake and eat it too.

    I think perhaps I’m romanticizing the parts of the archonic cloud that I like…if that makes any sense at all.

    So I’m wondering, have you been there? Do you have any thoughts on reconciling such ‘big’ emotions as an alchemist?

    The poem is called “White Noise”:

    The thing about death that scares me is the thought that I can’t make sound. Everything physical’s gone. I can’t sing along to Heartbeats for the hundredth time. Or remember the taste of cherry chap stick. Or indulge in New Year’s Eve cheesecake. Or get away from the crowd to feel a breeze on my face under the midsummer low light pollution sky, with the stars blinking like curious teenagers trading smiles in history class, ignoring the drone of war stories and imagining supple kisses, who haven’t abused their parents’ prescriptions yet, and don’t analyze their dreams fanning the flames of insane belief that a final answer is imminent, ready to toss themselves upon the rocks of life so they can one day believe in their maturity, and be grateful for incompetence acknowledged, the full circle of life and the perfection of everything, of essence refined through the grinder of time, and of dandelion gliders carried by the wind, kicked by my sandals my mom found at the mall protecting herself from the weight of infinity and beyond—I remember how it felt then. Will I remember when the dream ends? I never want to sleep again. But I want to remember the sound of “wake up sleepy head,” the sound of waves and breath, of my sister’s laugh, of my freedom declared, of the suburbs where I learned to drive, and the white noise of mini van tires on the highway, a family asleep.

    1. Your poem is deeply moving to me. And I understand just what you mean. We can have our cake and eat it too, that is the quest of the inner alchemist. We can create a world where this sparkling joy and sweet longing never ends for us, even after leaving the cycle of life and death. This is our choice, and all those distant dreams and funny little memories can exist and be exalted to an even greater extent, out there in that infinity that awaits us.
      When these emotions arise, a fighter feels them, looks at them from afar like an alone but never lonely wanderer stopping at a café for a moments rest, takes the time to watch the people around him go about the beauty of their lives. He sees in them such sparkling joy, such amazing wonder, and within himself he allows this moment of rest and longing. Such beauty such brilliance, and all set against the backdrop of infinity. And then he goes on… Knowing that in offering this moment to the Spirit, he immortalized it in time, and he will see the unveiling in the unfolding of this moment over and over again as he makes his way through that vastness.
      Thank you very much for sharing this! That you feel this means you feel infinity, and for that I am happy.

      This is a poem, by Pablo Neruda that comes close to this feeling for me:

      “No expanse is greater than where we live.
      Dust in the wheat, sand in the deserts,
      time, wandering water, the vague wind
      swept us on like sailing seeds.
      We might not have found one another in time.
      This meadow where we find ourselves,
      O little infinity! we give it back.
      But Love, this love has not ended:
      just as it never had a birth, it has
      no death: it is like a long river,
      only changing lands, and changing lips.”

  3. hello
    hope this finds you well, i know you’re not ‘allowed’ to give medical or financial advice so this might be tricky to answer but hopefully i can ask the right question…reason being for this intro is i’ve been diagnosed with autism and i suspect it has something to do with my never ending stream of questions and the nature of said questions.
    If i was to, in a relatively un-educated( i did read most books,re-read some), attempt to summarize your or ‘the’ whole inner alchemy philosophy/way i would say:”it’s to stop being food to a non organic ‘higher’ being in the food chain of reality, store enough energy and use said energy to become truly free from this place which is an invisible/hidden prison and it’s not guaranteed to escape but hey what can we do give up?’ with a lot of of smaller steps and inner discovery and nuance etc etc…

    all this makes sense, what bothers me is a couple of things though:
    first thing is, from the first memory of my childhood i have always repeated the question ‘why?’ and i can see how this leads to looking for the truth of reality in occultism since in our human society we have human constructs that are not so universally true but very useful like morality and moral objectivity for example, at least i think so. so i end up feeling like an alien honestly, the only time i feel like i belong somewhere is when i browse the conversations on this website(thank you btw) or read your books, even a family member i consider very understanding and open to new ideas and also closest to me i find sometimes ‘hits a wall’ of personal emotional responses and a little bit of dogma which results a very isolating experience for me to look at the world and think ‘huh, so it is most likely the case that most people will look like blind sheep to you(not to be arrogant, i’m aware of my own cognitive limitations, but i don’t think most people are. in fact i believe they think they have have figured out the ‘right’ way or that there is a right way… and it’s quite sad it’s like plato’s allegory of the cave) and even other ‘lunatics’ like you won’t reveal themselves, and for good reason you probably shouldn’t too.’

    i honestly don’t expect a solution for this just wanted to know what you think, is it unfortunately just the way it is for humanity in this era?do i just accept this and keep going? or is there another perspective maybe i’m not aware of?

    the second thing is well about life itself, the deeper i go into the first problem the more it starts to make sense why this is considered a prison by inner alchemy, what i mean by this is when i look at the world now all i see is a circus show that you didn’t ask to go to and you’re not allowed to exit.
    i mean yeah i made servitors and thought forms and did energy work but then what after all?material/physical gain feels like the biggest ‘show’ in the circus and even those people sitting around you in the audience shrug you off and tell you some fabricated story they believe to be why we are in the circus and then get offended if you dig a little and find a flaw in their worldview(which is understandable, i’ve read the mad logician article and i get that beliefs make us,myself included, feel safe and in control…).

    so i guess my followup question would be, and sorry if this me being too lazy to research, but what am i being ‘promised'(for a lack of a better word)? like what’s the end goal here? the books i have read multiple times are overcoming the archon, the magnum opus and the book on thought forms and manifesting prosperity and i didn’t want to ‘go deep’ into the way of the projectionist as it felt too advanced for now. and the goal seems to be to escape this three dimensional cube or prison and stop being food for the archon,so basically true freedom as you call it.. and then what? is it some sort of heaven? do i get to be god and experience every and any dimension i want any time i want?is that satisfying? or is it worse?
    i think these are very reasonable questions to ask in spite of their seemingly shortsighted ignorant nature.

    thanks!

    1. These are indeed reasonable questions. I must point out that I am not a mental health professional, and nothing I say should be taken as medical or psychological advice. All that I write is for informational purposes only. I am, after all, just a mad logician.
      For an inner alchemist, like anybody else, the realization of the average human reality is quite simply, devastating. But instead of falling into yet another trap, this time the trap of self-pity, inner alchemists use that energy to instead become fighters. And by fighters I don’t mean that they go out and fight other people, they instead fight the monkey nature within themselves. They use that energy to realize that they are magical beings, equal to everything else, but nevertheless magical beings trapped. But a magical being can escape the trap, in their own individual way, they fulfill their own individuality, they seek value fulfillment, which for them is freedom.
      A person seeking the knowledge of an inner alchemist might, if they have access to “the way of the projectionist”, want to read a little and that book. If they did, they could try to access what I refer to as the third room, and then understanding the fourth room so as to begin to understand what I refer to as the desireless ghost. They may already know some of this to some degree, and if this is the case then they should be proud of such a thing because this knowing takes introspection and personal energy.
      As to what you get, you get everything… And nothing. By mastering the third room of the projectionist, you can get everything and as you go through the fourth you discover that the everything of the world is (as you already seem to be discovering yourself) nothing, or worse yet, just another prison. But there is more, and where you go from there is amazing! Uniquely your own journey, and I can say at least from my experience, filled with sites and experiences that leave you breathless. Why? Because you never see them coming, because they are fresh and new and different, because they are beyond all the things you have considered to be reality thus far.
      Dare I say it, it’s not complicated. If my books seem complicated, then I am deeply sorry for that!
      It’s as simple as closing your eyes, turning off those things that seem out there, those things that a person perceives with their physical senses, and instead just looking within using new (perhaps never used before) inner senses. Turn down one dial, and turn up another. You are magic already just trust who you are.
      Also reading comments here is good. In particular A’s comment here might be highly interesting.

  4. John, thank you. Your response means a great deal to me.

    It’s a relief to know this is a shared part of the path. The image of the wanderer at the cafe, immortalizing a moment by witnessing it and offering it up, is a powerful piece of alchemy I will carry with me. I can see the unfolding. And I read it this morning sitting in a cafe no less!

    The Neruda poem was the perfect icing. Thank you for that gift as well.

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