The Quiet Power of an Unwritten Past

On many occasions people have asked me why I never show my picture anywhere or why I do not use my real voice when I make videos. I have also avoided interviews (not that too many people are offering any 😊) where I would need to appear in person. In simple terms, people want to know why I never show my face.

This choice is not a quirk or an attempt at mystery because I like dramatics… those that have met me know that I am not the shy type. It is part of my practice as an inner alchemist. While inner alchemy focuses on the internal, it also holds a central conviction that the external world is shaped by inner action. If inner action shapes reality, then the quality and direction of thought matter. A popular way to express this is to say that thoughts are things. If thoughts are truly things, then they are not harmless wisps floating through the mind. They have weight, they have influence, and they have a tendency to gather around the places where attention is most active.

This is where personal history becomes more than a simple record of past events. When others know your personal history, they begin to form thoughts about you. They imagine you, define you, and project their own interpretations onto you. Each of those thoughts is a small creation. Each one is a point of focus that can press against your own inner work. If thoughts are things, then the thoughts others hold about you are also things. They can cling, they can shape, and they can interfere.

Inner alchemy teaches that attention is the sculptor of reality. Wherever attention goes, energy follows. When you place attention on a desire, a goal, or a vision, you begin to give it form. When others place attention on you, they also give form to something. They create an image of you in their minds, and that image becomes a kind of structure. Over time, that structure can become a cage. It is built from assumptions, memories, judgments, and expectations. It is built from personal history.

This is why I keep my personal history to myself. It is not secrecy for its own sake. It is a way to keep the field around me clear. When fewer people hold fixed ideas about me, fewer structures are built. My inner work can move with less resistance. My attention can shape reality without competing with the attention of others. In this way, the absence of personal history becomes a form of freedom.

To understand this more deeply, consider how thoughts behave when they are fed by focus. A passing idea is like a spark. It appears, glows for a moment, and fades. But a thought that receives sustained attention begins to gather strength. It becomes a pattern. It becomes a tendency. It becomes a force that can influence perception and action. This is the mechanism behind manifestation. It is not magic as it is normally understood I suppose. It is nevertheless the natural consequence and the quite magical act of attention shaping the inner world and the inner world shaping the outer.

When many people hold thoughts about you, their attention becomes a collective force. Even if they mean well, their thoughts can create boundaries. They can create expectations that you must push against. They can create a version of you that is difficult to escape. This is why personal history can be detrimental. It invites the thoughts of others into your reality. It gives them material to build with.

Inner alchemy seeks to reduce this influence. It seeks to keep the inner field uncluttered so that the practitioner can direct their own thoughts with clarity. By limiting personal history, the practitioner limits the number of external thoughts that can attach to them. This is not isolation. It is intentional space. It is the choice to let the inner world remain the primary architect of the outer. It is the art of Individuation.

This book will explore this idea in depth. It will examine how personal history becomes a structure, how thoughts become things, and how attention shapes the world we experience. It will show why the absence of personal history can be a source of strength, and why the quiet mind often belongs to the person who refuses to be defined by the past (and therefore the present and the future) that others imagine for them.

There are many who claim that while thoughts are things, they do not affect others. This is a common New Age idea, the notion that you shape only yourself and no one else, and that the world should be allowed to flow around you while you stand firm in your own center. There is a partial truth in this, but only when we speak of the oversoul. The oversoul is the term I have used to describe and try to define the greater essence of what you are. It is the True Self in its most expansive form; it is the Higher Self in a sense. It is the part of you that exists beyond the three-dimensional matrix, beyond the cube world, beyond the limitations of physical perception. The oversoul cannot be violated. It cannot be influenced by external thoughts, certainly not by the thoughts found within the matrix of the physical world. It is too vast, too complete, too far beyond the reach of the energetic fluctuations and the Archonic force that define this dimension.

But the personality, the part of you that is here now, is only a sliver of that totality. It is you, me, the noisy neighbor. It is an aspect of the oversoul(s) that has been focused into physical form. And this sliver can indeed be influenced by the vibrations and thoughts of others. It is shaped by the frequency of your own thoughts, and it is also shaped by the frequencies that surround you. The idea that thoughts affect only the thinker is therefore incomplete. The oversoul stands untouched, but the personality immersed in the cube prison does not. The personality is immersed in the energetic currents of the cube matrix, and those currents can influence it.

To understand this influence, we must understand the nature of the cube itself. The world appears to us as a sphere. We see curvature everywhere. We see horizons that bend. We see concave and convex surfaces. We assume that we live on/in a round world. But this perception is a result of the hypercube that contains our reality. A hypercube is a higher dimensional structure that can hold a lower dimensional sphere within it. In higher physics, this is one way to explain the curvature of space. What appears to be a sphere is actually the visible expression of a containment field created by a hypercube.

Gravity itself can be understood through this framework. In classical physics gravity is described as a curvature of spacetime. Mass bends spacetime and objects follow the path of that bend. But if spacetime is held within a hypercube, then the curvature (or lack thereof) we observe is the result of the hypercube’s containment. The hypercube creates a concave and convex pattern that we interpret as spherical geometry. We see a sphere because the hypercube bends the energetic substrate in such a way that our senses interpret the result as flat, round, or concave. In truth, we are inside a cube. The cube is invisible because it exists in a higher dimensional orientation, but its effects are visible everywhere. The sphere is the illusion. The cube is the container.

Within this hypercube containment matrix, each of us exists as an individual energetic unit surrounded by billions of other energetic units. The entire structure is made up of many forms of awareness. Each one uses its own structural matrix to create from the substrate around it. You can think of this substrate as a kind of ether, the raw material from which our reality is shaped. We create objects within our matrix, objects that seem solid and separate, all held together by a pattern of time and causality.

This description is simple compared to the full complexity of the system. The matrix I am describing exists only within this three-dimensional plane of existence, the one we call reality. Beyond it there is more, and certain laws that apply here do not apply elsewhere. These greater regions are difficult to explain, and for the purposes of this article we will remain within the boundaries of the three-dimensional matrix.

Within this matrix and its laws, we are fundamentally energy. As aware energy we are constantly processing, expanding, and growing as individualities. You can think of this as a kind of value fulfillment that happens within a gestalt, a chaotic system where many potentialities develop according to the laws of this dimension.

This ongoing value fulfillment happens in a kind of singing. That is one of the better ways to describe it. Your individual awareness makes contact with the other energetic patterns within the system and shares an energetic output through creation. You can imagine this output as thoughts. These thoughts emerge from your awareness and are shaped by the patterns that make you who you are. All of this together forms a kind of song that radiates from you. This song exists within its own network field, yet it also projects outward and makes contact with the other components within the matrix.

Your song collides with other songs. Together they create new patterns of instability, new harmonics, new distortions, new possibilities. These patterns go on to shape your world. You are the sum of your own song, but the songs of others, and the larger patterns within the matrix itself, do affect you and your reality.

This is why the idea that thoughts affect only the thinker is incomplete. You are not isolated. You are not a sealed container. You are a singer within a vast chorus. Your song shapes the world, and the songs of others shapes you. This is the nature of the cube prison. It is a shared creation, a shared field, a shared resonance. And within that resonance, personal history becomes one of the strongest influences on the song that is you.

Being that you are a singer, a singing awareness, you could say that you vibrate at a certain frequency. Your song has a certain frequency. The song of others, and the song of the many patterns, currents, and tides of the matrix you are a part of, also have a frequency. And while your song can never be destroyed because of the greater you, the oversoul, and the inherent power that it projects onto the personality you are now, this personality can at times become overwhelmed by the greater song of its surroundings. The oversoul cannot be touched by the matrix. It cannot be altered by the thoughts of others. But the personality, the sliver of you that is focused into physical form, can be clouded by the resonance of the world around it.

In other words, the songs and the currents of others can overpower parts of your personality and your individual song within the matrix. Even though the greater portions of yourself will never be annihilated in this fashion, the personality can lose clarity… for a lifetime. It can lose its rhythm. It can lose its sense of direction. The song continues, but it becomes obscured by the chorus of the cube. What I am trying to say is that thoughts do matter, and their power can affect the individual. The oversoul remains untouched, but the personality does not. The personality is immersed in the energetic tides of the matrix, and those tides can influence it.

To understand this more deeply, imagine the personality as a small instrument within a vast orchestra. The oversoul is the composer, the conductor, the entire symphony in its totality. It cannot be drowned out. It cannot be broken. But the instrument that plays within the physical world can be affected by the surrounding noise. It can be influenced by the rhythm of other instruments played by other orchestras playing synphonies composed by other composers. The personality can be pulled into harmonics that do not belong to it. It can be forced into dissonance. The instrument is not destroyed in a greater sense because it will always be part of that grand orchestra, but its sound can be clouded and it can be annihilated whithin the matrix itself.

This clouding happens because the personality is a point of focus within the cube matrix. It is a localized expression of the oversoul. It is meant to experience, to learn, to grow, to create, and to die within the constraints of the three-dimensional world. But within those constraints, it is surrounded by billions of other points of focus. Each one sings its own song. Each one projects its own thoughts. Each one contributes to the energetic tides that flow through the matrix. These tides are powerful. They are shaped by collective thought, collective emotion, collective expectation. They are shaped by the structures of the cube itself.

The cube matrix is not a passive environment. It is an active field of creation. Every thought within it becomes a vibration. Every vibration becomes a pattern. Every pattern becomes a current. These currents move through the matrix and influence the personality. They do not touch the oversoul, but they can touch the sliver of awareness that is here now. They can cloud the song. They can distort the rhythm. They can create confusion, heaviness, and misalignment.

Inner alchemists understand this. They understand the laws of thought and energy. They understand that the personality is vulnerable to the currents of the matrix. They understand that while the oversoul cannot be violated, the sliver can be influenced. And because they understand this, they have developed techniques to survive within such a system. These techniques are not superstition. They are not ritual for the sake of ritual. They are methods designed to protect the clarity of the song. They are methods designed to keep the personality aligned with the oversoul. They are methods designed to reduce the clouding that comes from the thoughts of others.

Inner alchemists learn to quiet the external chorus. They learn to strengthen the internal resonance. They learn to focus their attention in such a way that the song of the oversoul becomes louder within the personality. They learn to reduce the influence of external thoughts. They learn to move through the matrix without becoming entangled in its tides. They learn to maintain clarity even when surrounded by billions of other songs.

This is why thoughts matter. This is why personal history matters. This is why the song can be clouded. And this is why these techniques within the art of inner alchemy exists. It is a way to keep the sliver aligned with the totality. It is a way to keep the instrument tuned to the composer. It is a way to ensure that the personality does not lose itself within the chorus of the cube, and through this refinement, the sliver has access to greater power. It can then use this power to seek true freedom from the cage and from the endless cycle of reincarnation, because inner alchemists believe that they should not be required to participate in or be held accountable for contracts they do not remember ever signing.

An inner alchemist, finding themselves within a cosmic sea, a sea of energy, and knowing that thoughts matter, becomes a powerful force within the gestalt awareness that inhabits this matrix. The cube is not just a container. It is a living field of creation filled with countless points of awareness, each one singing its own song. Within such a place, the inner alchemist must learn to survive. They must learn to maintain their freedom. Over time, they developed techniques that allow them to move through this sea without becoming trapped by the currents of thought that surround them. One of these techniques is what is commonly referred to as hiding or erasing personal history, becoming as inaccessible as possible to the general attention of humanity.

What others think of you is not all powerful in the sense that it can destroy the oversoul. Nothing in the cube can do that. But what others think of you does have an effect on the personality. It is difficult to put this into words, but you can imagine it as a radio station. This metaphor is one I often use because it captures the essence of the problem. A strong mind can learn to listen to its own frequency, the frequency of its inner voice, but it can still be affected by the chatter from without. This chatter is like the white noise of a radio station that keeps bleeding into your signal. You hear it inside yourself and you hear it outside yourself. It is always there.

The more attention you receive, the louder this external radio station becomes. The more people know about you, the more thoughts they project onto you, the more intense this frequency becomes. Even a proficient inner alchemist must contend with this weight. It does not destroy them, but it presses against them. It creates resistance. It creates turbulence. It creates a kind of drag that slows the clarity of their song. And because of this, the inner alchemist strives to become fluid. They strive to move without friction. They strive to slip through the matrix without attracting unnecessary attention.

To attain this fluidity, they disappear from the attention of the outer world as much as possible. They erase personal history. They remove the hooks that allow others to form fixed thoughts about them. They reduce the number of frequencies that can interfere with their own. They become a mystery, and in doing so they gain a kind of magic.

Another metaphor that can help here is the famous thought experiment known as Schrödinger’s cat. In this experiment, a cat is placed inside a sealed box along with a mechanism that has a fifty percent chance of releasing a substance that would end the cat’s life. Until the box is opened, the cat exists in a state of possibility. It is both alive and not alive. It is both one thing and another. The field of possibilities remains open because no observer has collapsed it by looking inside the box. Once the box is opened, the possibilities collapse into a single outcome. The observer forces the reality to take one form.

The inner alchemist strives to become the cat that is unseen. The unseen cat has at least two possibilities within the box, but an inner alchemist has far more. Their possibilities grow the more they become mysterious. Their possibilities expand the less they are observed. When no one knows who you are, when no one can define you, when no one can collapse your field of possibilities, you gain power. You gain freedom. You gain the ability to shape your own reality without interference.

This is the essence of hiding personal history. It is not secrecy for the sake of egoistic secrecy. It is not an attempt to be dramatic or aloof and sombre chic. It is a technique designed to keep the personality free from the clouding influence of external thought. It is a way to maintain clarity within the cube. It is a way to keep the song pure. It is a way to remain fluid within a sea of frequencies that can overwhelm the sliver of awareness that exists here now.

The inner alchemy dictum is that the more mysterious you become, the more of a secret you are upon the world, the more magic you possess. You are untouched by the attention of the world, and in doing so you are free from the collapse of probabilities that such attention can create. This is the reason why inner alchemists are secret beings. They exist on the fringe, in the liminal spaces found at the edge of reality. They move where the weight of consensus fades, where the chorus of the cube grows quiet, where the song of the world loses its grip.

If I were a better inner alchemist, such a fringe reality would be mine as well. But I suffer from a particular malady. I am also a Speaker. This means that I have been given the task to Speak energetic truth in as refined a fashion as I can. This places me in a difficult position. I must pursue the liminal realities of extended probabilities, realities not collapsed by the attention of the world at large, yet at the same time I must Speak. I must reveal. I must teach. I must walk a fine balance between the two.

In practical terms this means what I have said before. You may not see my image or hear my natural voice very often, or perhaps not at all. I will keep my personal history to myself, as much as one can in this digital world. I will strive to be hard to pin down while still fulfilling the task that has been given to me. I apologize to those who must endure my mechanical voice in videos, and the absence of my image. All I can say is that I strive to do the best I can, and to provide the clearest information for those who walk this path as I do, as faithfully as I can.

As far as identifying this technique within the way of inner alchemy, it is difficult to find material on it. I will strive to create more. I may write a book on it if enough people are interested. For now I recommend, The Art of Transmutation. There, in a more subliminal way, you will find the way of shadows, the way of uncollapsed probability. As the story unfolds and the shadowed man moves across the world while tutoring the protagonist, you will see how attention fades within the shadows. And within that fading, the cat becomes more than alive and dead. It becomes something else. It becomes possibility. It becomes magic.

Beyond this, I recommend Overcoming the Archon Through Alchemy to understand the nature of interference and how to deal with it through energetic means. This ability is vital within the framework of our existence. And finally, if you are interested in discovering more about the nature of the oversoul(s) and your role as a personality, a splinter of that greater you that has been injected into this three-dimensional prison, then I suggest the book, The Way of the Death Defier.

To understand why this technique of unbecoming is so important, we must return to the liminal. Everything that is truly magical tends to exist at the fringe of reality. It exists where the heaviness of consensus attention fades. It exists where the cube’s chorus grows thin. It exists where the world forgets to look. In these places, new things become possible. Impossible things become possible. The improbable becomes real. The strange becomes natural. The unseen becomes present.

These liminal spaces are like the Backrooms of reality. They are the forgotten corridors, the quiet corners, the places where the cube’s structure loosens. They are the places where the song of the world does not drown out the song of the self. They are the places where the oversoul can whisper more clearly to the sliver that walks here. They are the places where magic gathers.

And at the heart of this mystery stands Schrödinger’s cat. Not the simple cat in a single box, but a cat that has learned to hide itself in a box within a box. A cat that has learned to slip into the folds of the hypercube. A cat that has learned to avoid the gaze of the world. A cat that has learned to remain unseen. In that state, no probability wave collapses. No outcome is forced. No path is sealed. The cat becomes a creature of pure potential. It becomes a being of uncollapsed possibility. It becomes a whisper of the true magic within the cube.

This is the great secret. This is the great mystery. This is the art of becoming unseen. And within that unseen state, the song of the self rises, clear and untouched, carrying the magic of all that has not yet been forced into form.