How to maintain your truth, how to find yourself
I was asked:
I have difficulty maintaining my truth, these truths are fragile, and the truth of the other enters my head and I feel blocked, I even have trouble reasoning. Is there a defense?
My response was as follows:
This is a problem that we all have, and one that not too many people contemplate. What we think of as being our mind is often the mind of the collective, the mob mind that we all share as humans on this planet, and that mind is ruled, indeed fashioned, by the Archon!
But there is the possibility of finding your own you, the individual you. This individual you IS connected to the group mind, to all the many beliefs/memes, thoughts, emotions, fads of the time and of other times. But if you can learn to identify the real you underneath all of that noise, it is actually incredible to watch and feel all of these foreign thoughts, ideas, and impulses go through you. It feels like tides breaking against you and washing past you endlessly, freeing you from the collective.
To find your individual you, you have to pay more attention to your own mind; not try desperately to turn it off, or to pay attention to the outside world and the present only instead of what is going through it. You have to pay more attention to your mind, so that you can ‘tame it’ and put it in its place. It is really hard to do this at first because our attention span is short for the most part, and we tend to get lost in our thoughts in the same way that we fall asleep in our dreams. But if you just watch all of the thoughts, emotions, ideas, memories, feelings, images, etc., that are going across your mind all the time, you can eventually begin to see that underneath all of this. You can begin to see that there is a watcher, a being that is watching all of this, even watching you trying to watch yourself.
The watcher is the real you! Well, it is the individual part of you, the part that can learn to take action and do things independently of the mob mind, the part that can look for truths and see them over and over so that it does not forget who it is, it is the part of you that is free and an individual being.
Try to pay attention to all of the thoughts and impulses that go through your mind during the course of your day. Then slowly try to pay more and more attention to the part of you that is trying to pay attention to itself; pay attention to the watcher that is watching itself… Even watching itself watch itself.
There are many mysteries here, contemplate this fully.