Self-Improvement and Interesting Knowledge

You open your eyes and all that you can see is complete darkness. You seem to be in a room, a completely blacked out room, you turn your eyes one way, then the other, and nothing, complete ink black darkness…

In this completely dark room you cannot move easily, it almost feels like you have no limbs at all. But if you could, you are quite certain that you would not even be able to see your hands before your eyes, the entire room is pitch black. So, you instinctually do the most logical thing left to you, which is to try to hear something. But you cannot hear anything, and it is somehow even worse than this, it is like there is no sound at all and the only thing that you can hear is this buzzing or ringing, like that ringing in your ears that you can hear sometimes when it is completely silent, when there is absolutely no sound of any kind. And you think that this utter silence will drive you mad, it is driving you mad now, and that ringing, that ringing in your ears. But then you forget, and perhaps you dream, and then you remember where you are again, which is nowhere.

You are in a black on black room, it is a room without walls, but the walls are still there, they are the walls of your perception. All your external senses have been turned off. Moreover, you cannot feel anything, and it seems like you are floating, like gravity has been turned off, you are in a literal void. It is what you would imagine existence would be like at the center of some giant black hole somewhere, out there in cold space; you seem to be floating in lukewarm black space. This feeling is both liberating and relaxing in a certain way, but if it were to continue too long, it could easily become a kind of claustrophobic terror. If you have ever spent any time in an isolation tank, then you may be familiar with this feeling. This is the feeling of complete sensory deprivation, at least as complete as it can be using purely mechanical means. Interestingly, research into certain facets of sensory deprivation is not an easy task; It’s hard to find certain information. It could be that there is just not that much interest in this obscure topic, but it may also be the case that some of this lack of information is because many high level organizations have taken an interest in such devices, and some experimentation into these areas may have had some rather nefarious goals.

The modern version of such complete sensory deprivation is the sensory deprivation tank, which was created by Dr. John Lilly in 1954. This complete sensory deprivation chamber, which would later be known as a flotation tank, would completely change the field of personal awareness, and would allow for the scientific experimentation into incredible new facets of the human condition. But what is the big deal? What does it mean to turn off all your external senses? And why do it? Well, to answer this simply, we could refer to the floating man argument that was proposed by the medieval philosopher Ibn Sina.

His thought experiment proposed the idea of a man floating in a void, just like the one I have described above, one where this person is not able to perceive anything physically, where they are not even able to touch their body, wiggled their toes, let alone see hear taste or smell anything. In such a thought experiment, it is then proposed that this person might later reflect on what has just happened to him, and doing so they may conclude that in such an environment, in such a state of total sensory deprivation, they were able to realize that they were something, that there is something beneath the body. In removing the body and all of its perceptions, such a person might still find that there is something to them still, something beyond the body, and some might call that something the soul. Such an experience might allow them to directly perceive the difference, the duality, between the body and the soul. This is the direct perception of what in Cartesian philosophy would later become, the duality between the body and the mind. But this is only a mere scratch of the surface of what is possible when such complete sensory deprivation becomes achievable. And as I have mentioned, some of the past and perhaps even current experiments done in this area using sensory deprivation chambers, may help to bridge the incredible gaps in human consciousness. Such experiments may be able to perhaps even answer such questions as, what is the extent of human awareness and ability? Do humans have more sensual possibilities than just the physical senses? Could it be that we can use senses that are beyond, certainly far more powerful, than just the physical senses that we take so for granted during our physical life? And, are there other worlds? Other dimensions possible for us? Such experiments might even be able to show us how to begin to access other worlds, other dimensions, and in those worlds perhaps discover a new kind of life, a new kind of existence, in realities undreamt of. Such work if rigorously undertaken in all seriousness has the possibility to solve the riddle of other dimensions, and even the possibility of travelling to those fantastic places. Could this kind of experimentation have already begun?

Quite simply, yes it has! And in trying to prove the legitimacy of this, I would have you ponder the reason why it is so hard to find any concrete data on what has been done thus far. A simple question like, what is the longest that any person has been able to stay inside such a complete isolation chamber, Is very difficult to answer. And yet, there must have been experimentation in this area. But why no easily accessible data in the public sphere? This lack of information, of hardly any data on conclusive research by legitimate scientific bodies on the use of sensory deprivation chambers, should at the very least raise some questions within you. And certainly, you can be sure that such experimentation into isolation chamber endurance, combining pharmaceuticals and endurance sessions in such chambers, has and is being done. At most, in your research, you might find some information saying that Dr. John Lilly himself may have spent days in an isolation tank, hooked up to an Intravenous unit, but aside from this there is very little out there. So where is all the data? And what does the little that we know on this tell us about the kind of work that was being done, and the kind of work that might still be going on?

What I can tell you, through my own experience as an inner alchemist, is that an average person without training can only withstand such complete sensory deprivation for only so long. Eventually such a person will begin to lose their self identity. And that might be something that you should consider carefully, especially if we contemplate the possibility that such techniques might be used today by less than scrupulous individuals. But why is it that people can only handle so much sensory deprivation? Well, the reason for this is that so much of what we are is dependent on our external physical perceptions. The person that you are right now is not something born in isolation, but it is instead in many ways a reflection of the environment you perceived to be out there in accordance with your physical senses. We are what we remember ourselves to be, and if you think about the nature of memory, and how much of it relates and is reliant on external stimulus to maintain a kind of cohesive feeling of existence, of being alive as the particular person that you imagine and perceive yourself to be, then you can begin to understand just how intertwined you are to your environment. If I were to go to the kitchen and make myself something to eat for example, I would imagine that I would be able to follow some simple recipe without problem, but it is incredibly surprising how much I might forget.

I may make some wonderful culinary concoction, but it is quite possible that I will forget to put in salt in my masterpiece, or some other spice. Why did I forget?

Most likely because I did not see the salt, I did not pay attention to it. Our memory is cued to our physical experience, most often to our visual sense. We tend to remember to do things, not because we have laid our plans perfectly in some kind of software program in our minds, like a computer, but because we rely on our physical senses to perceive things, and then to remember to do those things that are related to those perceptions. Our memory is directly tied to our physical perception. If we are smart therefore, we may make sure that we have a written recipe, which is a visual written record of what we need to do in sequence. Without that recipe we may often make mistakes, forgetting one thing or another. Even our memory cues, which are different tricks you might say to try to remember a great deal of data, are usually based on some kind of visual cue, where we peg one particular thing to another, usually a striking visual image, and in that way we are able to remember thanks to our ability to not recall hard data on its own, but by being able to peg that data to certain very striking visual cues and then remembering a sequence thanks to that. In other words, our memories are completely tied to our perceptions, and for the average person such perceptions are most often only physical ones, our physical senses. So, without our physical senses, and without training, we forget, and in time we may even forget ourselves, at least the nature of who we are, our personality, and this can bring about a kind of insanity. If we forget ourselves, if we forget everything, then we become that floating man in the thought experiment referred to above. We may lose all sense of who we are, only knowing that we exist but nothing more. Under such duress, and I must call it duress for the average person, because in time without that symbiotic relationship between that existence and the outer physical environment, the structure of our self begins to experience a kind of identity onslaught. In time, lost in such a deprivation chamber, the self becomes unhinged in certain ways, unable to know itself because it cannot identify and remember itself. And its only option then becomes, to try to now maintain its fragile identity in this new environment, an environment where it can no longer rely on the symbiosis between itself and the stable physical world.

Unused mental muscles that are not able to create stable structures within the mind, means that the mind is in a constant state of flow, never finding rest. And incredibly, such a total lack of physical stimulus will in time open up new worlds, access to new dimensions, so that this fragile self must now contend with alien environments, dream positions, where wholly new realities must be contended with. Pushed into such an environment without training, a personality may be fractured. In the best of terms, such reawakening into a totally new internal environment may allow someone to begin to explore new dimensions in worlds beyond anything imaginable. But these must be controlled in short explorations at first, until the mind becomes powerful enough to withstand these experiences. The use of the sensory deprivation tank can become a key to future human evolution, and the starting place for a new kind of mind science. Taken seriously by a wider body of researchers, this relatively simple technology if used properly, can allow us to break the bonds that bind us to this limited reality we call physical existence. This of course is an ancient technology, and one that has been used by inner alchemist’s for thousands of years to break the walls of perception. But unlike the modern world that has become so reliant on external contraptions, they have developed and use techniques that do not rely on any external paraphernalia. Using such techniques, inner alchemists can break the limits that bind them to physicality. And in time may even move not just mentally but wholly, completely body and soul, into entirely different other worlds. But such a process must be done slowly, in a step-by-step fashion, so that a practitioner is able to grow in power slowly over time, and in that way dive deeper and deeper into the dark oceans of perception. In this way, they begin to re-create themselves from the ground up in an environment where the physical senses, where all physical experience has been completely left behind. Such adepts not only discover the true nature of their being, but also begin to fortify their true self, a self hidden from most, and one that I have referred to as the ghost in the machine.

I would encourage you to do your own research into sensory deprivation. You may find such research exasperating because of the lack of information, but any material that you can dig up may just open up your eyes to how seriously certain groups are taking this research. And it is my hope that through such a revelation, you can begin to truly realize just how powerful human beings actually are, how powerful you are as an individual. There are hidden secrets to be found out there to be sure, and this is one of the big ones. Research in this field by what can be termed very powerful and legitimate sources, is and will reveal not only the true nature of our existence, but our ability to truly go beyond this world and into vast other places, alien realities. And incredibly, the nature of this work will reveal to you that true exploration for us, for humanity, will not come about onboard some steel rocket, as we are slowly pulled away from the gravity of the earth, but that it will come through a new science of the mind. A new science might I add, that is no longer in its infancy. But you do not need to rely on hidden secrets and hard to find information, to begin your own quest into realms beyond the physical senses. As an inner alchemist myself I can tell you that you can begin your own adventures without any of the contraptions and the technology that the modern world is so reliant upon. You can learn to slowly gain your power using techniques that are as old as time. These techniques can allow you to break the bonds of physicality better than any of the modern methods used by such scientists. If you are interested, you can easily begin to incorporate inner alchemy techniques that are safe and provide a step by step procedural system to allow you to do the impossible. I have described these techniques in detail in the books, the way of the projectionist, and, out of body experiences quickly and naturally. In those books you will find everything that you need to move safely into spaces beyond any physical cage. There is a vast universe out there, and you can be a part of it. You can learn to regain the great power within you. I will leave a link to these books in the video description, and I would highly recommend them to anyone interested in trying to move beyond physical limitation.

There truly are great secrets in the world, and one of the greatest is the work that has been done, is currently still being done, into sensory deprivation, through the use of isolation tanks and other methodologies.
But there are older ways and more powerful ways, ways that do not require so much mechanics and external paraphernalia. These are safer ways that ultimately lead to far greater power, true power.

If you would like to know more about these methodologies used by inner alchemy, then I recommend the books:
Out of Body Experiences Quickly and Naturally
The Way of the Projectionist

I have written a number of books over the years, that outline techniques from a tradition that I refer to as inner alchemy.

I generally try to stay away from just writing about dogmatic beliefs, that is, I try to stay away from the dogma, a belief system, whether my own as an inner alchemist, or anyone elses’s, and instead I try to focus as much as possible on technique, so that those that read my books can try the techniques that I write about and in that way, hopefully through their own successes, find out whether what I’m saying is true or not. No dogma, no need to believe my crazy experiences…just try this technique, and see for yourself if it actually works.

These techniques, tend to be things that many people find quite daunting or impossible, such as the ability to travel out of body, and create magical servants that will do your bidding.  Therefore, when I write about these things, there are times when those that are trying to do what others say is impossible, run into major obstacles of a (psychological or psyche) based nature.

For example, in astral travel or out of body techniques, when a person looks into doing these techniques themselves for the first time, they can instantly believe that such techniques, such inner actions, are impossible, or if they are possible, they’re only possible for a select few, for those that are the outliers, the genetically predisposed and the naturally talented.

As another example, in discussing techniques that would allow a person to acquire great deals of knowledge through inner work and inner travel, I mentioned to one of my readers that such skills do require talent, in that in order to download this information that is available in what could be called a different dimensional field, that person must master the ability to project into that dimension with certitude and exactness, and then be able to bring that information back and THEN translate that aquired knowledge into the syntax of the physical plane. That is, turn that other dimensionally acquired knowledge into a linear and language based set of information, that can be used in this three dimensional place, this earth, that we call the real world.

Quite simply, it would be like trying to remember one of the many and complicated dreams that you have every night, and be able to get the full extent, the full knowledge and experience, of that dream, and turn that information into something that would be useful in what we would refer to as waking reality.

You would think that this is easy, that remembering dreams is not a great task, but in fact it does require a great deal of developed talent and experience, because in actuality dreams are far more complex than many remember when they are back in waking reality, in that these dreams usually involve what could best be termed ‘depth’ and instant knowing (direct knowledge) of such intensity that is most difficult to translate into waking  consciousness, where time functions in a different manner.  It would be sort of like after seeing a wonderful sight, one that completely envelops you in utter bliss and heightened experience, and then you have to then write an essay on what these feelings and this moment was all about, including the ability to try to express in words, this seeming intensity of experience that has instantly and from then on, completely altered the very fabric of your being. No an easy linguistic task.

Such experiences, such inner experiences, hold within them a richness that is beyond linear and material conception.  A human being can experience this depth and feel and understand it within themselves, but to then try to express those inner feelings, that inner knowing at that time, is very difficult, and indeed this is what our art, our poetry, tries to with great diligence and sometimes difficulty. We cannot duplicate that other dimension, we can only try to somehow fit it into the syntax and phenomenology of this dimension.

Inner knowledge, and inner knowing, such as the ability to know the incredible things that can be discovered within dreams, within the context of those moment points experienced in those other dimensions, requires that kind of mastery of ability.  The ability to move a block of perception that holds within it an expanse that is beyond physical time and linear objectiveness, and turn it into something that is useful in this three dimensional world.

As such, an ability to do this takes time. The kind of time that can be compared to what a person might go through to become a Ph.D. It is something that is quite possible certainly, but it is just something that takes time and a relentless focus of attention.

Upon hearing that such a mastery is required, an average person might be quite disappointed thinking that, as I mentioned earlier, such a task is nearly impossible and is only available really, to a select few and to a talented minority.

In that regard I can only say this:

Such conclusions are only applicable if you believe that something like astral travel for example is an oddity.  And here we come to a most important point, and that is what you believe.

Belief is an incredibly powerful thing and I think that if you look, you’ll find that people that have been able to believe something, can do what is seemingly impossible, while at the same time those that believe that they cannot, find an obstacle at every turn.

I do not like to use this old adage about belief, but it is very much an important reference here.  I too am a bit disappointed then in the fact that some may have decided right off that such a skill is an impossibility or a highly difficult one.  I will tell you why something is difficult or not difficult: it is quite basically how much attention you are able to give it; how much focus of attention you have.

You can quite literally do anything in this world that you want, as long as you can focus your attention long enough on that one outcome.  The techniques that I discuss in my books and in some of my articles are all possible if that person is willing to dedicate the time and effort (by which I mean the prolonged focus of attention) to finally get the conclusion they desire.  Yes, it is possible that for some people these techniques will take longer than others, this is a fact.  There are also others that will run into negative beliefs as they focus their attention, in the same way that some might believe that such skills are outliers, that they are difficult and that they are for the few.  And faced with those negative or counter beliefs, many will give up.  But some will continue and will face those beliefs, change them, and continue with their focus on what they want.  That is the only difference between those that get something done and those that are willing to believe what the world at large is telling them they can’t do.

I have faith that you can do anything if your focus is unrelenting and precise, or I would not write these books for people just like you. I hope your faith in yourself grows over time as your focus of attention gets you the things you may want; the knowledge and the skill you may want.

If you would like to know more about what the focus of attention can do, then I recommend my book,

The way of the projectionist

There are a number of different methods that are recommended, and techniques used, to try to initiate out of body travels or astral projections.

In this article I don’t want to focus on these techniques, but instead I want to discuss the many incredible and fantastical perceptions, that are possible when a person can successfully find themselves in the out of body condition.

I feel, that it is very important to talk about these issues, because the sheer power and crazy bewildering nature of them, can in the simplest of terms, be the biggest reason why most people give up trying to go further in their out of body journeys.

We try something, and as we do so we experience unusual, weird, and what we may at times even call foolish things, that instantly make us question the reality of what just happened. We see something, and know that in the supposed real world, these things could not possibly be, and so we say, what a load of rubbish, its all in my head, there is no ‘real’ in these silly experiences, I am making it all up in my head…and we stop.

We are all so used to a life of experiences perceived through stable physical senses, that we forget just how hard we actually had to work, to make these experiences so stable to begin with. We forget the many odd incidents that we had as children, the magic around every corner, and the fact that this magic, that filled our lives back then, was due to the fact that we were ( in those times ) far more flexible, far more innocent, more clear, more unsullied, by the expectations and regulations that a reasonable world imposes upon us.

Our eyes were not so imprisoned by the rules of reason, and what should ( or should not be) back in our childhood days. These young and unsullied eyes were far freer, and they might for that reason, warp things on occasion, see near as far, change the color of things, and even at certain times, see fantastical events and beings that now, with our completely ordered and reasoned eyes, we could never see. Because we could never accept as real, as fact, as possible even, that which is not within the boundaries of the accepted world order.

If our eyes do funny things now, we reprimand ourselves, we tell ourselves that something is wrong, we are losing it, some kind of it, I don’t know what it exactly, but whatever that ‘it’ is, it means that we must be going nuts, that we have broken a law of reality, or that we are broken ourselves, and are in quick need of some kind of help.

But, thankfully for the average person, most of us do not have to worry about odd visual anomalies in the physical dimension. Most of us have become stable and happy, deeply bored perhaps, but happy stable adult humans while in this waking reality. And in the same way that we learnt to stabilise the physical world, to become complacent even in our physical reality, we can learn to bring order to the other realms that we all have access to; those other realms that can be accessed when we focus our efforts, and therefore our attention, on leaving the 3 dimensional cube behind for a little while, and travel out of our bodies, to discover the magic of our childhood once again.

When we first begin our journeys out of the body, we will always run into what I refer to as phantom images. I call these ‘phantom images’ not because they are not real, or because they are less important than other perceptions and realities that we are more used to, but because they represent different dimensional orders, or frequencies of existence if you like; they are images that do not easily fit into, the one hard dimension that most people call actual reality; concrete, sane, common sense, common order…reality.

This can be a difficult concept, but it is a crucially important one for those that are travelling astrally, that are willing to experiment for themselves, to see if there is indeed something beyond the physical.

What this concept means is that when we are seeing, that is perceiving, with eyes that are not physical, with internal eyes, internal senses, we can see a great jumble of things that seem to have little to no stability, which is quite obvious from the fact that anything that we may see, can morph and change from one thing to another very rapidly; our inner visions (or perceptions of any kind) are often an odd, fluid, chaotic, scrambled.

And no wonder therefore, that most people who try these Out of Body Techniques, quickly give up, thinking that its all bunk, that its all in their heads, that its delusion.

Now, the easiest fix and advise, one which I recommend myself, is to not worry so much about the chaotic and seemingly unrealistic nature of these visions. Many people instantly want to be out of body, so that they can then go spy on what their friend on the other side of the city is doing. They want instant and perfect perception. When they instead find that they have only seen odd jumbles of things, that have no relation to what their friend may report to have actually been doing on the day of the visit, they give up and call all such projecting, a silly flight of fancy. And so the best advise is really, forget about supposed accuracy and supposed reality at first. Don’t expect to go read secret documents somewhere and record your findings. Instead just go with the flow of your visions, and accept the fact that these visions will at first, and for some time to come, be as odd and convoluted as remembered dreams.

This then is the simple and most practical first advice, but I feel personally that A little more explanation IS required. Or else why go on really? If unrealistic inaccurate jumble is all there is at first, then why try?

The thing is though that it is not jumble, not in the sense that it is all worthless visions, meaning random unimportant nothing. There is a logic there, a logic far more complex and powerful than simple physical reason, and knowing that this logic is a foundational principal beneath the many chaotic, that is complex system, visions that you will encounter out of the body, can help you to want to keep going in your efforts. And as such, you must therefore know that in time, you will begin to understand this complex perceptive jumble, which will then unfold before you as the magical nature of personal reality.

When you exit the physical body then, and move across what seems to be space, and see a tree in your back yard for example, you may see a different tree than the one that you see with your physical eyes. This astral tree may be small, it may have things on it, or it may not have things on it that were in the physical tree in your back yard. What you see through your physical eyes, and what you see through your astral eyes can be very different, especially when you are just starting your travels.

But what your astral eyes are seeing is not wrong, it is just different, and in many ways far more precise and informative, not only about the state of the tree itself, but also about the state of your own psyche, and even in purely physically practical terms, the inner eyes are far more powerful and insightful than the physical ones. This is so, because we cannot see anything without coloring and changing that something with our own filter of reality; the perceiver and the perceived are one. And no matter how much the skeptical rationalist will argue to the contrary, a ruler, a physical ruler, is different to all who perceive it. There is no one ruler, no one exact measure, one unchanging perfect unit, there are many fluid units, one differing ruler for each observer, and each is different in accordance to who sees it, and when. There is no out there…only our impression of what is out there; an agreed upon consensus, a very fluid and changing consensus might I add, of what that reality is, a consensus which we, in the modern world, call the rational, the physical, and the ‘real’.

So, when you see the tree with your inner astral eyes, you will see what you think is a jumble of fluid and seemingly illusory things. But that jumble is made up of many important perceptive events, that do matter.

Let me give you an example of what you may see:

Most often, what you will see at first, is your concept of what that tree should be; your ideas, notions, expectations, your memory, and therefore beliefs as to what that tree is, and ought to be. This represents a phantom image, a notion, a memory of a thing, and that notion will cloud your vision of what you see, it will filter your seeing.

So that tree that you perceive with your inner senses, may be tall, while the accepted as physical version of the tree might be a bit shorter, it might have something on it that is or is not there in the physical dimension. This jumble, this complex system of perception, is also made up of probable realities, other dimensional probability points where the tree is or is not there in the physical location you expect it to be. It may also be green, purple, a cow, a person, a thought of something, like an idea superimposed on the place where the tree should be, and such probability points (that is other dimensions of actuality) will cloud how you see the astral tree and will therefore, from the perspective of a reasonable human, be phantom images, illusions superimposed on what the tree is supposed to be in the physical dimension.

It is also possible, that you may even experience phantom images that are made up of the thoughts that others have had, are having, or will have, about the tree. And these visions can be seen as the actual tree in a different form, or complete other events like a person hammering a nail, which could represent in that case the desire of that person to cut down the tree, to pound it down for example. So that you end up not seeing the tree, but actually seeing someone hammering, which you then conclude is nonsense, but that is in fact a most valid perception of another actuality that does matter!

There is therefore, a lot for you to potentially see, a great complex order of perception.

Know then that all is real, all is valid, your crazy visions while out of body are all valid, all phantom images are real and valid in their own right. The problem is not their validity, but your ability to navigate through them, and put all those greater perceptive realities in their place. This will mean that you will need to focus and do more out of body exploration, instead of giving up because you think its all nonsense. It will mean that you will need to start to appreciate and develop a far more powerful logical order of what is and is not, a logical outline far more complex than simple physical reason, and easily agreed upon group think.

But you can do this, we humans are far more capable than we imagine, and it is possible to greatly exceed the simple logic of reason and the laws of supposed sanity, of modern common sense, that tell you that you are a three dimensional thing stuck in a hard three dimensional world; a cube in a cube.

If you would like to know more about out of body travelling, about the out of body condition, other dimensions, timelines, and how to have out of body experiences yourself, then I recommend the book, out of body experiences quickly and naturally. This I feel is a very good introductory overview of the out of body condition and projecting, but for those that are interested in the big leagues as they say, in the hard core projectionist world and the core principals and techniques that can allow an individuality to fly free, perhaps forever, then I recommend the book, The way of the projectionist.

I was recently asked about the limiting power of words, how verbal language may trap us, how it may restrict and perhaps even be used as a weapon to keep us all down. Well, in past articles and videos I have discussed some of this, but this is such an important topic that any clarification that I could give I think would be helpful.

To understand the limits of words we must understand the totality of ourselves, and the restrictions imposed on us here in this material dimension. I have said in the past that we are multidimensional beings, this means that we are far more than what we seem to be just from the physical perspective alone.

Using our physical eyes and listening only with our physical ears, then it is easy to suppose, to take it for granted, that we are a certain object quite clearly defined and outlined in three dimensional space. With our physical eyes we can see the beginning and the end of us, and we can define ourselves as a physical body that takes up a measurable amount of room within a three dimensional field of space and time. With our physical ears, we can perceive that this body, this object self, seems to have the possibility of creating sounds and through the manipulation of those sounds create a pattern, and a complex syntax, that eventually allows us all to communicate one object to the other.

But from the inner alchemist’s point of view, this is merely a lie of the physical senses, because we are so much more than physical things all gibbering at each other.

Perhaps the best way to explain this is to try to imagine what a dream experience might be like. In a particular dream you might imagine yourself to be someone you are not, in what might seem at the time to be real life to you. For example, in a dream you might be a person that you are not. In a dream you can be a totally different you. And, generally speaking, most people completely forget about the physical existence that they left behind the moment that they start the dreaming process.

Dreams can take us to a whole different world, and in that world, we are oftentimes different people, and in rare occasions we may even find ourselves in completely different worlds with wholly different laws from the ones that rule our waking reality. Moreover, most of us tend to completely forget our dreams, or may remember only slivers of them when we wake up the next morning. And during this dream, if we can remember any of it when we wake up, we may be incredibly fascinated in an odd and sometimes even morbid way, how it is that we can completely forget during that dream that we are something else while we are awake.

In that sense then, dreams can show us that we have the possibility to exist in other places, and while in those places we have this propensity to forget those aspects of ourselves that we left behind. In the same way that in dreams we can forget the physical being that we are while awake, during physical existence we also forget that we are more than just physicality. What I am trying to say is that physical existence is just a dream, and you are forgetting the fact that you are more than this.

This means that we are now dreaming ourselves as being physical beings, we are a dream dreaming itself as a physical person. And just like any dream, while in that dream we forget about the fact that there are different aspects of us that are beyond this dream, that there are aspects of ourselves not bound to the physical world. While we are dreaming physicality, we forget about the fact that there are different aspects of us existing in other places. Our dream self, the physical being that we become while we are dreaming this physical life in a physical world, forgets that we are far more than this. It forgets that we are multidimensional beings, beings of great proportion, and that only slivers of us, only a small sliver of the totality of ourselves, are caught up in a dream we call reality.

While in that dream, we wholeheartedly believe that we are only that physicality. But in the same way that we sometimes seem to wake up a little bit in our dreams, become lucid for small moments, we can sometimes wake up a little during physical existence. In those moments of fleeting lucidity, we may have glimpses of a larger existence, small little glimmers of illumination, that revealed to us in relative ways just how big we are and just how limiting and constricting this current dream is.

The thing about any dream location, is that while there, the gravity of that place makes us forget about everything else, and it also restricts us within a certain parameter of possibilities. Every dream position has a particular set of laws and principles that are to be found in that location and that are very difficult to break. Indeed, the laws of any particular dream position are impossible to overcome if we forget about the fact that we are a dreamer lost in one particular dream position.

While in this physical dream, we feel that we are bound to words, because the only way that we have to communicate, the only way that we even feel that we can communicate with ourselves even, is through these words. Many of us are so lost in this particular dream, that we often feel that words are the only way that we may know and experience reality. While lost in the gravity of this physical dream we are overcome by the trap of this place, and accept the supposed laws of this place without question. The gravity of this dream makes us believe that rationality and the syntax of rationality, the words and terms that we use, is the only thing available to us.

Such a restriction is the gravity of this place. Further, inner alchemists believe that this gravity is additionally compounded by the titanic force of the Archon, which rules this particular dream position. Such a force makes waking up from the dream very difficult.

During physical existence, this dream gravity that we might refer to as rationality, does not only bind us to words and their arrangement, the syntax of rationality, it also actively pits the parts of us that are experiencing this dream against ourselves, so that in the end we become our own worst enemies. This is the great power of the Archon.

Words will never be able to express the totality of what you are, of what the world truly is. They can only help to describe certain aspects of this particular dream position that we are now in. Moreover, since the gravity of this place affects not only us as dreamers, but also all of the dreamers that are here in this particular dream position with us, we must not only contend with our forgetting, we must also contend with the forgetting of everyone else, and the drive within them to try to bend others to the will of this place, the will of this dream position we call physical reality. This is a most important point.

But the moment you can learn to perceive with more than just your physical senses, is the moment that you start to remember the totality of yourself. This will be the moment that you will start to remember the different aspects of yourself that are scattered across different points in space and time, aspects of yourself that are located in different dream positions.

I refer to this ability as seeing, but it can also be experienced through a technique of inner alchemy that I have referred to as the way of the projectionist. Through the development of such personal ability, you can then begin to understand the true reality of your total self, and in doing so the greater perceptive possibilities available to you. Once this happens you will begin to see that words, the syntax of rationality, are wholly and completely inadequate in explaining and describing the totality of who you are, and the total sum of your potential.

Words limit us, they restrict what is possible by telling us that the only things conceivable are those things that they can describe. The syntax of rationality makes us conclude that everything outside of it) is an illusion, delusion, a form of insanity.

But there is so much more to us, there is far more to us that exists beyond this tiny sliver of physical reality. The greater sum of us exists in locations beyond this one particular dream position.

By letting go of those words and learning to perceive energy directly, either through seeing or through the power of the projectionist, we can then begin to realize that there is an incalculable world out there that we can be a part of. If we can let go of those words, we can also slowly but surely begin to participate in a world where we are not just limited objects, that can only manipulate our world in accordance with the gravity of rationality. If we can let go of those words and therefore the gravity of this particular dream position, true magic begins to open up to us.

It is accurate to say that all of my books are designed to try to reveal the magic of the totality of us beyond the syntax of rationality. But in this particular case, in order to understand the gravity of any particular dream position, and more importantly what is needed to be able to go beyond the syntax of rationality that is almost total in this modern world, I would highly recommend the book, The Way of the Projectionist.

The way of inner alchemy is the way of energy, and of being able to perceive that energy in the most correct and precise manner possible. For that reason, there are times when I have been asked how inner alchemy sees other techniques, and how they perceive the validity in the symbolism of such techniques.

I have been asked for example, whether inner alchemists consider kundalini to be a kind of myth. And certainly to them the energy that is tapped into through the practice of kundalini ascension is certainly not a myth, but you could say that the way this energetic surge, or pool of energy is symbolized and sometimes even described, is just one possible interpretation of many, at least from the point of view of inner alchemists. And the interpretation of, and the way of reaching this energy, can vary greatly from culture and region to region. In accordance with the seeing of inner alchemy, there is indeed an energetic pool that is available to humanity, but the way this pool is interpreted and reached, can vary greatly across cultures and regions.

In this particular case, when it comes to kundalini, in accordance with the yogic system, this energy is described using certain properties, symbolism, characteristics, some of which are usable in accordance with the doing of inner alchemy, while others are not. And might I point out here, that many of the inconsistencies and difference between yoga and alchemy let us say, are in many ways more the result of academic trifles then the actual experience by true practitioners. In other words, most differences and inconsistencies between certain systems is the result of dogmatic debate between researchers, as opposed to any kind of real inconsistency between actual practitioners of the art.

Now, because of the fact that it is so difficult for us to begin certain tasks, especially the difficult road of energy work or inner development, a person should use whatever school of thought or way that suits them best, that resonates the most with their inner feelings. Motivation is a big aspect of getting started and continuing on your journey, and as such we must use all the tricks at our disposal to get started and stay on course. If the yogic traditions appeal to you then use them, if the way of inner alchemy suits you best, then use that. In order to guarantee success in this difficult beginning, follow the way of your heart and choose the road that resonates with you the most.

But as we progress through any system, and we learn to work and perceive energy directly ourselves through such efforts, then we must also learn to go beyond all symbolism and dogma, because such things can be a great limitation in the long run. What I mean by this, is that the ability to use such symbolism and dogma to start, the ability to be able to understand this energy that you are trying to tap into by calling it kundalini for example, and by practising a wonderful set of outlined principles like yoga, is very important in the beginning. This is so because it can give you a framework and motivation at first.

But as you the practitioner become an adept, as you learn to find your way through a system and learn to perceive and work with energy directly, you must begin to slowly let go of that symbolism. This is crucial because if you don’t, there will be a limit to how far you can go. In time, you must begin to trust your skill and your ability to perceive energy as an individual, or you will be forever stuck within dogmatic limitations.

This is the case because such cultural symbolism and interpretation of how you proceed, in the end can be thought of like a kind of structure existing out there. This non-local mental structure gives a framework and stability in the beginning, but if you are not willing to move beyond that structure, then you have hit your limit once you reach the outer edges of it. If you cannot trust yourself and your own individual doing, then this structure goes from being an ally to being a prison. And this prison cannot be overcome by deeper exploration into the dogma of that way of energy work, it cannot be overcome by greater research into every nook and cranny of that structure. Such a prison can only be overcome through direct and individual practice, and the confidence developed through that actual practice.

Any good system must insist on the development of your own ability to perceive and work with energy directly. It must provide for a way for you to begin to discover your own energetic truth beyond the system itself. If this is not the case, then that system is incomplete, and it is in many ways designed to trap you within the structure of itself.

Certainly the insight from those that have gone before can help, but it must always be taken within the context of what you personally ultimately want to accomplish. This context means that words will never explain true energetic perception because they are not up to the task, and as such this does not mean that such practitioners are wrong, but that the words that must be used sometimes to explain their doings can lead us astray. The only way to overcome the obstacle of the illusion of words, is to let go of those words and learn to perceive and do yourself directly. Eventually the practitioner realizes that kundalini is in some ways a kind of illusion, because it is simply a word. Kundalini is in essence just a word, it is just a term created to try to explain something that exists in a place beyond words, a non-local space. The only thing that really matters is direct knowledge, which comes through direct energetic perception and doing, not through symbolism.

This might sound like religious heresy to some, but I must point out nonetheless that there is no energy in kundalini. Kundalini, in and of itself is not power, it is not ultimate truth and the only way. It is instead a name for a certain aspect of one possible road, that leads to a place that then allows the practitioner to access a certain type of incredibly powerful energy base. But there are many roads and many descriptions, and all are valid. A better way to say this I feel is that, there are no roads and there are no ways, there is only energy, everything else is an illusion.

So, from the inner alchemist’s point of view, kundalini represents a release of energy that is always there to some degree within everyone, and that you do not need to practice yoga specifically to release it. There are many ways to get to the same place. Therefore, we have to be very careful in all such descriptions, the words and the symbols that we used to try to explain what we are doing.

From the inner alchemists point of view, which might sound like heresy to many as well, kundalini is not at the base of the spine, even though in some ways you could say it is. From their point of view for example, we could say that within every cubic inch of space, there is enough energy to power the planet, and yet who could possibly access such energy, and who could withstand the power of such energy if it were released. Energy for them is anywhere and everywhere, and the only thing that truly directs energy from their point of view is the focus of attention, not a location per se or a mantra. So, while there might be certain nerve groupings within the body and certain inherent energy channels or meridians, the body is not an object, it is not a static thing, it is instead energy, and energy is infinitely malleable.

We may all start from a relative base structure, but we have the potential to create anything, whether that anything is the awakening of kundalini or the creation of the philosopher’s stone, which is a structure that inner alchemists use to try to tap into that infinite power available in every cubic inch of space.

To say that kundalini energy is real, is true. But to say that such energy is only possible through such practice let us say, is something that one must be careful about, because dogma has this way of creating division that does not exist in the energetic world. Within every cubic inch of space there is enough energy to power the planet a few times over. Such power could be accessed to some degree through kundalini work, or through the creation of the philosopher’s stone.

Begin your journey and follow the road that appeals most to those aspects deep within yourself. Play with your own reality, your own psychology, and follow the way that appeals best to your heart. But as you progress down this road do not be fooled by the words used to describe something much deeper and greater than the words used to describe it. Instead, as you learn to work with energy yourself, let go of that symbolism and all those words and begin to explore your own energetic reality directly. If you do not do this, then you will be bound and constricted by those words and that supposed symbolism that was so helpful to you in the beginning.

Instead of exploring the true nature of energy and power itself, which is unbound and nonlocal, meaning that it is beyond the constrictions of space and time as we understand such things intellectually, you will be stuck within a structure of illusory words. This will mean that the true potential of that energy that you are tapping into, when you release kundalini for example, will never be truly and fully possible for you.

In alchemy, a different form of symbolism is used, but there is certainly a deep relation between what is called kundalini in yoga and what is called the philosopher’s stone in alchemy. And there is a connection between both of these and that potential energy to be found in every cubic inch of space. There are two types of symbolism here, two potential roads that you can follow, and each one points to a beginning that may seem very far apart, but as you progress down whatever road appeals most to you, and find the underlying energetic truth of what that road is and what lies at the end of it, you must go beyond terms and symbols because in dogmatic symbolism, you will only find illusion. You may even fail to realize that all true roads, all good roads, lead to the same energetic truth.

If you would like to know more about what I consider to be a very good energetic road, the energetic way of inner alchemy, then I would recommend the book, The Magnum Opus. It will show you what you will need to do to progress and go deeply down that energetic road. If it appeals to something deep within you, if it appeals to your heart, then use it. And then once you understand and have gone deep enough so that you can work with energy directly yourself, you can then begin to follow your own path, move farther and farther away from that structure, and perhaps even develop your own terms and symbolism. This is the only way, that infinity will open up to you.

In past videos and articles I have discussed the idea of love, and how inner alchemists engage in the act of loving in a different way than most people. To try and explain the nature of how an inner alchemist loves, I have tried to say that for them, this world is not a material place. What I mean by this is that for them the world is not a thing full of objects, where they are just one more object in this object filled world. For them the world is energy, whether it is an object like a rock or a potato, or whether it is a feeling like sadness or love, for them all is energy.

And while it could be said that the average world does not consider love, and feelings as such, to be objects, the fact that the rational world insist that objects are the only things that truly exist or matter, means that when it comes to tricky things like emotions and feelings, rationality has a very difficult time defining, explaining, or giving reason for the validity, the usefulness, the deployment let us say, of such things.

As such, when discussing emotions, and even discussing love or how love is given and received, often such ethereal things, even though they are not objects in and of themselves, they can take on a kind of give-and-take connotation, where a certain thing is given, and another thing is expected in return, like a barter item in a consumer society.

Inner alchemists do not believe in the love that demands something in return, in the love of the materialists. For them, as I described in great detail in the book, The Way of the Death Defier, the only thing that truly matters is freedom, less gravity, escaping this material cube world. So, for them the only love possible is a love I term, using older definitions and understandings, agape.

Such love, agape, does not demand anything in return. It is given freely and equally to all, and as such, some might wonder how it is possible to love all equally, none more than others let us say, like a bland soup, and as such they imagine that such a love would mean a loss of identity, a loss of an individual’s right to desire or love one person more than another. They imagine this love as no individuality at all.

These are very legitimate questions, and the only way I can answer them is thus:

If you truly love someone, what is the greatest thing that you can give? According to the average world, the best thing they could do is help them, give them a hand up. And even though there are many people that have altruistic intentions, there can be in most of those cases this kind of barter system, where what is given should be returned in some way; pass it along as they say.

Now, I am not saying that everyone should do this free and freedom type of love thing, I am saying that inner alchemists do this, and I say that they do this because they aspire to lightness, less gravity, freedom, and as such they wish to let go of the entanglements of this earth. And so, soberly they may see, directly perceive through the inner senses, that the best thing that you could actually do for anyone, anyone that you truly love, is to give them freedom, to give them the kind of lightness that you want for yourself. Giving of that freedom without demanding anything in return is true agape.

Certainly, the ability to desire, like the desire to love and be loved, is a good way to define individuality, but that does not mean that every desire is good. Now, I am not here to give anyone lessons as to what is bad or what is good, because in the end all things are equal once one is able to use the inner senses and see. But for each individual, they must understand their own true self and through that understanding, know the nature of their desires and their intention and carry forward soberly, consciously, free of folly and self-delusion.

When you love, who do you love? Is it that you love yourself or the other? Do you love and demand love in return only to relieve your loneliness? If you love the other and you can truly see that this is a school, this earth, then how much are you helping them by helping them? How much are you loving them by helping them? How much are you helping them by demanding that on top of all the weight they now carry, they must now love you too?

The inner alchemist chooses freedom, and when they love then they try to help, and being able to see the savage little garden for what it truly is, this earth, this school, then they give the only thing possible, freedom. And this love, this love of freedom given freely, has an intensity that is without equal in the rational and material world.

As the new year approaches, many of us might want to make a change in our lives. It has become a tradition to make a resolution and try to change in the new year, something about ourselves that we would like to improve. And yet, for some of us this tradition of making a New Year’s resolution has become a bit of a gag.

Many have become cynical about the power of these New Year’s resolutions. The inability to stick to a certain goal can be so nebulous and hard for most people, that the New Year’s resolution especially is looked upon with some doubt and skepticism. At best, we may try to be supportive of others who make these resolutions, but many people have grown skeptical and doubtful.

Indeed, the inability to maintain our resolution has become so commonplace and so accepted, that there are many theories to try to explain the reason for this difficulty. Most of these theories boil down to a person’s inability to stick to idealistic and impulsive goals. We are told that we must carefully plan our goals and set appropriate conditions, that there are limits, and that we should go slowly instead of trying to make some drastic change.

But why is this? Why is our will so weak that we must basically tone down and carefully contemplate what we expect from ourselves?

Well, inner alchemists believe that the reason for this weakness is that we forget. And they say that we forget because of the great density, of this physical dimension.

They say that this is a very dense place, a place full of strong gravity, this physical world that we all seem to be a part of. Within it, everything seems to be hard, both in the literal and the figurative sense, meaning that most of us seem to accept the fact that we are hard objects here, surrounded by other hard objects, and that everything that we do must abide by a certain set of laws that treats us and the world around us, like billiard balls on a hard table.

But the power of the inner alchemist is that even though they know directly that this is indeed a very psychically dense place, where gravity pulls down at everything that we do, they can also see directly that the belief by many that we are hard object like things all interacting together, is an illusion.

Alternatively, and through their ability to perceive the true nature of existence, they can see that we are not this hard and heavy illusion, but that instead we are energy, magical things, that have the possibility to change in an instant, if we can only allow ourselves to remember.

You see, our biggest problem is that we forget. The biggest reason why our resolutions fail is that we forget. We are magical beings, and all that we need to do to change is to turn a corner, stop looking back at where we were, and just keep going in that direction until we get somewhere new. But the great gravity and density of this place makes us dense as well, and this opaqueness, this block-headedness, means that instead of remembering to look forward and turn a corner, we instead forget what we are and where we were going. In forgetting, we must always turn around and look back, look back at our past in order to try to remember who we are and where we were going. A part of us seems to forget itself, a part of us, that conscious individuality that I refer to as the ghost in the machine, gets pulled down by the great gravity of this material world, it gets distracted,

its attention gets pulled away, and when this happens, we forget who we are and where we were going.

In order to remember ourselves again, in order to not lose ourselves and try to regain that individuality that we have momentarily lost, our only recourse is to look back at our history, our supposed memory. And in doing so, through the focus of our attention, we are pulled back to that place where we were, instead of that place where we want to be.

And then, having remembered, we must once again resolve to go forward to that new place where we want to go, where we want to be, and start our journey all over again. But soon we will forget, and this cycle will repeat itself over and over again. This is the great horror of the gravity of this place, most of us are stuck because we can never remember ourselves as we move forward, most of us just do not have the strength to do that.

Inner alchemists strive their entire lives to remember themselves. They battle the density of this place in an energetic way, they consider the psychic war an energetic affair. If you are interested in how they battle the great gravity of this physical world, then, I would recommend to you the book, The Magnum Opus, a step-by-step course.

But for now, when it comes to those resolutions that you might or might not make for the coming of this new year, it is my desire to explain to you why such resolutions fail, and to hopefully provide a more adequate explanation, that in turn might help you to understand the nature of reality and yourself a little better. It is really easy to blame ourselves, and in doing so weaken ourselves even more, so that in this depleted and demoralized state, it becomes even harder to move forward into a better place.

In this article, I hope that the inner alchemist’s perspective on why change is so hard, will help you to regain some of your lost power. Often, what weakens us the most, is actually not knowing ‘why’ things are so difficult. Many of us do have a great deal of resolve. Most of the people that I see, are actually quite courageous, they are individuals that get up over and over again, no matter how much the world pulls down at them, they always get up again. But what can get to some, is not knowing why they seem to have such a hard time, and it is my hope that this article helps a little with that.

As to how to maintain your resolve, well, you must now realize that it is all about remembering. For us, one of the most magical things we have ever created as a species is the written word. Nothing has been more precious to our ancient ancestors than our ability to write something down. Indeed, the written word was such a powerful magical tool, that in the old days the practice of erasing, quite literally, others from the written history, was the greatest of all curses.

In order to maintain your resolve, you must remember, and in order to remember you must use the  magical tool of the written word. Make a list of where you want to go, be as specific as is possible for you. Also, make a list of all of the reasons, all of the great pains, of why you want to go there, and finally make a list of all of the wonderful things and the amazing feelings that you will have upon reaching that goal. Read that list to yourself every day, multiple times a day if you have to. The trick of this list is not to engage your memory, but instead just focus on the list. In other words, try to forget that past mentally and just use that list like a kind of magical talisman, that represents your entire quest. Instead of engaging your memory, which will pull you back, just use the list. Think of it like a living thing that represents the complete change that you want to make. You do not need to remember that past, it is on the list if you ever really need it. And more and more, through time, read just the part of the list that tells you where you want to go and why you want to get there. Use your mind consciously by paying less and less attention mentally to that first half of your list, that past explaining why you want to move in the first place, and pay more and more attention to that place where you want to go.

Trust that the list that you have created knows why you want to move forward in the first place, you do not need to remember this, because it is on the list. Read where you want to go, how good it is being there. Where you want to go, what it is to be there, over and over.

Then again read about what it is to be there, what it feels like to be there, what it feels like to be there, over and over.

In time, you will begin to move forward without being pulled back so much. And where you go from there, well, as an inner alchemist I can tell you that there is no limit to how far you can go.

Happy holidays my dear and courageous friends.

There are many of us that have felt at some point in our lives, that things just do not make sense.

But for a few these feelings of somehow not being able to fit in among ‘normal’ people, persists, and no matter what they do to try to figure out a different way, a way to make the rational perspectives of the world fit in to the strangeness that they perceive out there, they cannot.

For such people it is sort of like there is this knowledge, this set of forgotten memories perhaps, just around the corner, just around that next bend, just out of reach somehow; like some all too obvious secret that they cannot fully grasp. Such people may search their entire lives for a place to fit in, they may search high and low for some kind of group, some sect, somebody somewhere, that might allow them to feel like they have finally come home, and they finally fit in.

Such feelings can be incredibly strong, and they can persist for a lifetime. Some might even say that they may feel that this knowledge and this tribe of like-minded people is calling to them somehow, like they must search for it, give up everything to find it, and as such they may travel a long way looking for such people, looking for such answers. If only they could reach this group, or at the very least identify that world or those people that they feel that they belong with, then perhaps a few of those questions might finally have answers.

For someone that feels this inner angst, it is sort of like they just do not fit in the world, like they just cannot think and see the kinds of things that the world is telling them that they are supposed to think and supposed to see. After a while, this continuous effort to try to fit in gets harder and harder, and due to that constant exertion to just seem normal to the average world and ignore that nagging intuition, you may find yourself feeling that you are truly alone, and everything that you legitimately feel is just personal delusion.

Well, I can tell you that you are not alone, I can tell you that there are many who are waking up to those intuitions, and many more that have been born feeling those intuitions. I refer to this inner angst and this feeling of being sort of like an alien in an alien world, as the calling.

These are the feelings and intuitions of those that can just about see around the corner, but not quite. It is a feeling that happens to anyone that has a feeling that there is more to things than what the world at large is telling you. But you have to be careful with these feelings because they can be used against you, making you believe that you belong somewhere and then using that to try to manipulate you.

Inner alchemists believe that this is indeed a calling, an angst deep within you that is calling for you to look further, to explore those feelings further. But our current of inner alchemy says that you should not look to some group to try and tell you what these feelings are, but that you should find these answers for yourself, in yourself. You are right, if you feel that there are very few people that are willing to even acknowledge this sense of being something more, something different. And just acknowledging this takes a lot of courage, and the desire to seek takes even more courage.

An inner alchemist is someone who has this calling, who has felt this constant ache for a long time or perhaps since the day that they were born, and they are someone who then does something about it. But not something that the world expects, not some material thing that the world expects you to do. They do not engage in some kind of material rebellion, where they think that they must somehow change the entire world in order to suit them, and then go about engaging in purely material things, rational things, things of the average world, that same average world that they do not seem to be a part of. Instead, they engage in inner action. They do not become joiners but instead work on their individual selves as individuals, being that this is the only way to truly know yourself.

They do not engage in outer action but instead practice inner doing, inner action, that can in time change the totality of who they are and open up freedom and vistas beyond all material and rational conception. You might say that the inner alchemist is playing multi-dimensional chess in the theatre of infinity, while everybody else is playing checkers in an actual physical board as they fight with tooth and claw, stick and stone, for each tiny jump in their flat and constricted world.

If you have felt that angst then you may be experiencing that intuitive calling to go beyond the average rational world yourself, and that is truly a special thing. Inner alchemy says that now you have to be careful, that you have to look for certain keys in order to find different doors, into different dimensions that lead into odd angles that will reveal some of the truth to you.

To find those keys they say that you need to be independent, an individual, that you need to know technique, that you need to explore those techniques and see what works for you, and then as that calling expands into better and better inner doing, you can then take your place amongst those that have the courage to face that inner angst, and are willing to put in the amount of focus time needed to know the truth and then keep going further and further. This is the road that leads to freedom, certainty, and that feeling that you have finally found your place.

So, what you need to do is not a material thing, in the sense that it is not something that the world might say you have to do, like go on some quest to some unknown land of gurus, join some kind of group, or do a thousand push-ups every night. Instead, what you need to do is focus, focus into that odd place that you feel, explore, explore the difference you feel. And once there trust yourself, trust your individuality, your inner feeling sense, and then go further.

The inner alchemist’s point of view is that instead of seeking to have someone reveal the truth to you, that instead you as an individual seek for ways to find that truth yourself. And that this truth will not be found out there somewhere, it will not be found in some distant land somewhere out there in the physical world per se, but that it will be found when you are able to discover new ways to look deeply within yourself.

As such, inner alchemists seek technique instead of dogma. And to that end you may wish to use any of the many techniques that intuitively call to you as being worth your time and effort. Do not seek some master, but instead learn technique, and in this time of great revelation, there are many sources that can provide both supposed answers and those techniques that are the truly important thing.

That dogma might be helpful, some of those supposed answers might be helpful, in that they can give you a little bit of a rudder to help you know the general direction that suits you best, that seems to somehow resonate with aspects of yourself. But if those answers do not come with the techniques needed for you to find the validity of them yourself, then seek elsewhere. Your final goal should always be to be able to directly see, to directly perceive, those supposed truths yourself.

If you are interested in some of the supposed truths, and most importantly the techniques that inner alchemy uses, then I recommend the book, The Magnum Opus. In this book there is a little bit of dogma thrown in in order for you to find a rudder, and to see if the way of inner alchemy truly does resonate with what that inner angst has been telling you your whole life. But of greatest importance, is the fact that in this book you will find many techniques to be able to navigate through this sometimes tempestuous world, and you will also find techniques and methodologies that will allow you as an individual, without the need to rely on anyone else, to find your own truths, your own individual answers and the way of your individual being.

Depending on what you believe, and depending on some of the reports that you may have heard about, read about, or seen on a video, it would seem like inner alchemy is at odds with some of the things that Near Death Experiencers are reporting.

Sometimes, especially with the more popular cases that people are talking about, people that have had near-death experiences, or people that report pre-birth memories, say that we have agreed to come here, that this life has purpose and meaning, that we made a conscious choice at some point to come to this life.

People that have these kinds of near-death experiences, or people that might report having met certain angelic like figures, that report having memories before their physical birth, might say that they have been told, that they feel deep within themselves, that they came here for a reason, that they chose. This of course implies in a way that there are reasons for the struggles and the pain of this material world, but at the same time there is this feeling of not needing to question, but to just accept the fact that we chose to be here, to trust in higher authority.

Along with these messages and these experiences, some may report that they have been told by certain voices or angelic like figures, that what they need to do is to learn to love. Interestingly, while there might be this message in these experiences of purpose and the need to develop more loving ways, there is seldom any mention of the need for self-development.

Such ideas and experiences might seem to go completely against some of the basic precepts of inner alchemy, that I have written about and that I have discussed in my videos. If for example, we came here for a reason, if we chose to be here, then how does this relate to the way of inner alchemy, which states that we should overcome this place, fight against the oppressive density and gravity of this place, overcome the Archon.

If there is a purpose for our being here, then what is that purpose? Often times, in accordance with what some of the people that have had such experiences say, it seems that we are not meant to know, like it is somehow above us, beyond us, at least the conscious part of us. It is sort of implied and sometimes stated outright that this material world, our physical lives, are kind of like a school for us to learn, but the nature of what we are to learn can sometimes be a vague thing. For the most part we may be told that we should learn about love, that love is the key to whatever it is that we are supposed to learn to do here.

If this is the case, then where does the Archon fit in? The way of inner alchemy says that this is a world that must be overcome, and yet such near-death experiences, such angelic figures, and some pre-birth knowledge, seems to oppose these notions in a way. It would seem like inner alchemy is trying to spoil the game, like they are saying that one should walk away from this pre-destiny. And as I have mentioned in the past, inner alchemy takes it one step further by saying that the conscious part of us, that part of you that is now reading this article, that awake part in this here now moment that is truly alive and independent at this nexus point in time, this part, it did not agree to anything, it did not agree to come down here and participate in this life.

This notion of agreeing or not agreeing in accordance with the direct perceptions of inner alchemists’, is a complex one and I go into great detail on this, every nuanced point of it, in the book, The Way of the Death Defier. And I would highly recommend that you read that book if you are interested in the near-death experience, the energetic truth of the life-and-death cycle, what happens after we physically die, what final death and the Black Sun are, and how it is possible for a practitioner to defy even this final death and attain immortality.

In that book in particular, I say that inner alchemists take the stance that they did not agree to participate in any life game, they did not agree to come here, and in accordance with their seeing, their direct perceptions of the world beyond this physical dimension, they know that what they truly are, the individuality that is theirs now, is something that they gained after physical birth, and not before it. As I said, I do explain this in detail in the book mentioned above, but in essence what it means to the inner alchemist is that, if there was no true individuality before physical birth, then the core of who they are now did not choose anything.

In this short article I cannot explain all of the nuance of this, but I will try to answer some of these questions about the contradictions between inner alchemy and what some are reporting in near-death experiences, in pre-birth memories, or in contact with what some might refer to as angelic voices, angelic beings, or godlike entities.

So first off, inner alchemists’ say that this is not a game that they chose and that directly contradicts many of the beliefs and the experiences of some people. But they do agree in a sense with the notion that we have come here for a reason, that there is a greater purpose to the material reality and the life that we are living now. Through their own direct experiences, which are highly conscious and aware experiences where inner alchemists engage in something I referred to as seeing or something that I have referred to as the way of the projectionist, they have in these very sober moments been able to experience directly, to see, that what might be referred to as a higher order of being is indeed using this material world, this ‘playground’ let us call it, for a greater purpose. But inner alchemists as true individuals did not agree to this game, so they are not willing to play that game, they want out of the playground basically.

And yet, one could say that inner alchemy is not about truancy, it is not about running out of the school playground and escaping altogether. In a sense, inner alchemy could be said to be more like a truancy officer, a truancy officer for the individual anyway. Inner alchemy insists that the only gift that you will ever get in this life is that individuality that is yours at this moment point. It says that individuality in many ways is a kind of accident, a little complication from the playground that was built by higher authority, a little quirk in the energetic design of the place. Inner alchemy says that you should take that accidental gift and run with it, steal it, and once you have done that, only when you have done that, when you have truly taken it as your own, then you should escape the playground altogether, and let those supposed higher forces continue their game without you.

So, because of the need to first steal that accidental gift, inner alchemists are the truancy officer for those that seek individuality, in that they often insist on the fact that this little playground that they did not agree to come to is a school. They insist that this place must become a real school for all those that seek true individuality, and true freedom. They say that this is the only school that counts for the freedom seeking individuals that are stuck in this place, and the only way to really get out is to come to terms with the idea that you have to get yourself out by looking at this place, this playground, as a challenge to overcome, as a school of sorts to be aced.

You can think of it like this, in accordance with what some might be experiencing, and some might be reporting, at least the way that it is being reported, and this is crucial, it would seem like the fact that we are here, and the act of being here on this material earth, is as it should be. It is like there is no need to try, no need to think about life and living overtly too much, because a greater force is guiding this time and there is in essence no need to try very hard at anything. There is no need to try or think about it do much because you are in the right place at the right time, you chose to be here, and there is a greater force taking care of you, so just go with it, go with the flow, you cannot go wrong.

Inner alchemists then are sort of like little sticks in the mud, nasty truancy officers in that they want to ruin the party, they want everybody to get out of the playground and wake up, get out of the arcade and go back to school, wake up to the fact that they are supposed to be in school, true school, instead of unconsciously frolicking in the playground.

Some of these people that have had very legitimate, very real and valid memories and experiences, sometimes insist that love is all there is. In trying to explain to others the nature of their experiences, they may say something along the lines of, focus on love, more love, if you can do that everything else will take care of itself.

In this case again, it would seem like inner alchemists are being little disturbers that contradict such notions of devotion and the feeling of love, of ease. They want to ruin the party, they want people to stop thinking that everything is easy peasy, and this seems to contradict all of the legitimate experiences that many people are having.

But in order to understand what is going on here, and understand the point of view of inner alchemy, we must understand the nature of what is taking place in some of these experiences, we must understand the nature of the seeing of inner alchemy, and by doing so understand the nature of the message and the wisdom of such heavenly experiences.

Certainly, the nature of these experiences is very complicated, there is an incredible amount of nuance involved here, having to do with the true nature of our existence as an individual. Such as, when do you become an individual? Who are these forces that are creating this environment we call physical reality? Is their purpose truly our purpose? Or another way to say this would be, could it be that the purpose of our existence is far more complicated than black-and-white answers, the kind of simplistic answers that we are used to hearing. Could it be that our ‘purpose’ for being here has nuance and complication, that also takes into account an inherent need by the individual, to push the boundaries of themselves and their environment in every way possible. A nuance that insists that the individual should challenge even the very nature of the forces that are supposedly trying to guide them.

Some that are able to perceive deeply, might be able to understand that certain ‘greater’ or larger aspects of themselves, did indeed participate in certain choices made, and that these choices have placed them in the physical circumstances that they find themselves in now. But the individual that is here now, this individual is unique, indeed must be unique for such supposed purposes to truly be able to unfold correctly. This individual must be free of memory and burden, it must be a unique start therefore for each and every individual life, and moreover, this individual must have a chance to free itself, it must be given the possibility to fight to go beyond any school curriculum, no matter how beautiful the school or the playground might be.

Without this unique start, and without this ability to have a chance to break out of any bonds or cycles of being, then that individual cannot grow, or at the very least you could say that it can only grow so much, and only in a certain way, which in the end is no real growth at all from the inner alchemists’ point of view.

This is a complex environment, this little playground, and the forces that have brought it about are infinitely complicated as well. Some of them are interested in stifling growth. Not all of these forces can be said to be good from the human point of view, and such dark forces are interested in the ingestion, the eating, the using the playground for their own purpose you might say. There are other forces that are interested in growth and evolution, they are interested in freedom and are open to any possibilities that the individual can manage to make happen, they want the genius in humanity to flourish.

The nature of these experiences, whether near-death, contact with angelic like beings, or pre-birth memories of any kind, is very complex. Interpretation can sometimes be impossible at first, and even the reports of what has happened to some can be incredibly difficult to relate to others, because words will never be complex enough to describe the true depth of what such experiences are all about.

To put it in simple terms, the nature of these co-mingling forces, those that want to help and those that want to stifle and consume, means that for the inner alchemists at least, there is only one possible answer. For them, this material earth goes from being a fun little playground and instead becomes a savage little garden, a place where they are grown and modified like bio-engineered wheat, one life after the next, one crop to the next, each life creating better wheat, better growth, and for some that have agreed to put this garden together, that have participated in the growing of this garden, the wheat ‘is’ food.

But, if these are legitimate experiences, and those forces contacted are indeed trying to help the wheat, those forces that want to help us evolve and become free, then what are they trying to say? This is a difficult thing to try to understand because these experiences and these pre-birth memories are very much like a dream, in that they are happening in other dimensional positions. Just like a dream is sometimes hard to decipher, being that the symbols and the things experienced sometimes represent and involve other things, deeper things, such near death and angelic experiences are even more complicated than dreams most often, and they have inner qualities and challenges that are sometimes ‘lost in translation’.

This savage little garden as I call it, is savage, because we all suffer here to one degree or another, it is indeed a relative issue, but we all suffer. You might say that inner alchemists take the stance of the Buddhists that say that all life is suffering.

So, one way to overcome some of the suffering is to understand that you are indeed a graceful being, you are in a state of grace because of the fact that you are graceful, you have been created in grace, in the image of God, in the image of ‘all that is’, and this is graceful. Understanding this fact could alleviate much of that suffering, so it is indeed great help to understand the nature of that grace that is yours now. Many of these near-death experiences and pre-birth memories try to make this point, and as such they are helpful, I believe that this is why many of these experiences tend to take on such qualities of inner grace and love.

If you are told that love is the one thing, and this is the one thing that you should work on, then it is indeed possible for you to alleviate much of this struggle in this savage little garden through the pursuit of love. But, the little stick in the mud, the inner alchemist, says that in the savage garden you are going to forget, you are going to forget about this love thing, you are going to forget about the true nature of love and about grace.

In the interpretation of these experiences, and in the living, the actual living in this savage garden, we all forget, and we all make blunders in perception once we are back here in this material place. As such, it is very easy to skew meanings and the nature of action going forward after such revelations. For example, there are some that can fail to understand the nature of such experiences and skew these ideas, so that grace and gracefulness become an excuse to not try, to not even think about it, because to them grace means that they can just slack off. Some might understand the point of love during these experiences, or when they first hear about others having such experiences, but it is easy to assume that somehow love is there for you no matter what, which it is, but this does not mean that you can just give up, that you can just turn into some unconscious thing and wander through life without meaning or effort in some way.

To love and to live in grace is not about pretending that you are in some playground without ever needing to worry about anything. It is instead about facing life had on, about focusing on the right things, and about learning to develop an unrelenting, unbending focus on what truly matters. And this cannot happen without a great deal of effort on your part. This is the challenge, the true challenge, a true school to teach you about this challenge of this kind of focus, and as such this life that we are living in this place is the greatest adventure possible, and it is indeed a game that is being played on a cosmic level.

What all this boils down to is acting and participating in the act of becoming more and more an individual, a conscious and aware being, a being that is learning to focus their conscious attention. If you are not doing this, then you are not growing in a certain sense, or another way to say this is that you are growing in a different way, you are growing like a plant. You are either consciously directing your attention on grace, or you are not, and in that case you are never going to find that grace that you seek. Instead, without this conscious focus all you will be part of is an unconscious life, the life of the plant. Without conscious focus you are just a plant, wheat to be sown in the savage garden.

The individual fights to pull its roots out of the ground and walk away from any environment that it does not choose to be in. The difference between vegetative ignorance and active participation is the focus of attention, the deliberate and unrelenting focus of conscious attention, instead of looking away and not caring.

In near-death experiences, angelic contacts, and pre-birth memories, at least from the point of view of inner alchemy, you are given a challenge, that challenge is to focus on your grace, and to focus on your love, true love, something I refer to as agape.

To do that you need to focus on such things, and you must constantly fight the gravity and the density of this material earth, of this savage little garden, that makes you want to forget to consciously focus. To forget that challenge is not to be graceful. In other words, the real grace that is being experienced in those legitimate near-death experiences is not about forgetting, and saying who cares or there is no fight out there, because we live in a perfect place with nothing to worry about. It is instead about focusing on grace and focusing on it with unrelenting power. That is the challenge.

If you can do that, then that grace will be upon you, but only if you can keep that focus and that is the nature of the challenge, and this is so because that unrelenting focus is much harder than you imagine, therefore maintaining that focus on grace or on love in this savage little garden is far harder than some would imagine.

Inner alchemy says that you should get back to school, get out of the arcade that is keeping you focused on silly little things in the savage garden. The truancy officers of inner alchemy say that you should at least wake up a little bit to the fact that this is a school and a challenge, a great adventure really of the most amazing kind. They say that you should wake up a little because if you do not you are missing out on the greatest joy possible for you. Inner alchemy says that you are not a plant, that you are not some wheat to be grown, generation after generation, in order to benefit a game that you did not agree to.

Inner alchemy says that many of those near-death experiences, pre-birth memories, and those events where angelic like forces are contacted are indeed legitimate, and that the nature of those experiences reveals the true nature of the challenge of existence. But those challenges are not about turning away and forgetting because supposedly there is nothing to worry about, they say that this is the con of the Archon. They say that life is instead about facing the savage little garden head on, and as you do so you learn to develop unrelenting focus on the true gracefulness of your being and on true love, agape.

If you can maintain that unrelenting focus, which is the true challenge of the game, then you can pull those roots out of the ground and walk away and be neither wheat or chaff for anyone or anything.

As I said, there is great nuance to all of this, and explaining it, explaining the nature of your psyche, your soul, biological death, true death as one faces the Black Sun, well, all of this requires more space than I have here. To that end I do recommend the book mentioned earlier, the way of the death defier. There you will find many of the answers that you seek, and you will also find ways to develop that unrelenting focus that is the true nature of the challenge, the true nature of the game.

In my last article, I discussed the idea that you should use whatever occult or mental discipline most inspires you. I equated this discipline to a kind of propellant and a rocket, that could be used to get you off the material space.

But as I mentioned in the article, once that discipline has taken you far enough, I said that you should strive to go beyond it, to be able to get off the rocket as it were, because if you did not, you might be stuck within the limitations of that discipline itself, within the boundaries of that rocket, and in that sense you would go from one trap to another.

After posting that article, I received some feedback that was wonderful in helping to clarify some key points, and it is my desire to further define and give clarity to a key issue that I think are of extreme importance.

This key issue has to do with a fundamental facet of the way of inner alchemy, one that is so important that I feel needs to be further described and redefined from another angle here, and one that is seldom defined in exactly this particular fashion, at least in my opinion.

To try to explain this in the best way possible, I could say that a key component of any particular inner discipline, that is any good mental or occult science, is that such a discipline makes it clear at some point as you progress through it, that, as Alfred Korzibski said, the map is not the territory.

And beyond this, and this is the important part, this discipline gives you a starting technique, for learning how to see the territory yourself directly.

So, whether you are studying the Kabbalah, ceremonial magic, alchemy, Wicca, or whatever else, if such a mental discipline is worthy of you, then it should be spelled out as you progress within that discipline, that the map is not the territory. And within such a discipline, there should be some effort made for the practitioner to be able to go beyond that map, and to see the territory that is the foundation of that map.

What this statement basically means, the map is not the territory, is that the description of a thing, a theory of a thing, a model for a thing, the discipline itself, is not the thing in itself, it is instead just a map of the actual thing. So, in the context of this article, if we think of alchemy for example, we could say that the model of alchemy, the discipline of it, its basic foundational terms and symbolism, its dogmatic principles, are in essence the map, they are not the territory itself. As such, it is always the case that as the adept progresses and moves beyond the many restrictions that are imposed on them in this material world, that they also begin to understand that alchemy itself is not the ultimate truth, that it does not hold some kind of underlying meaning to  existence in and of itself, but that it is itself just the model to try to explain something that is beyond all models. In other words, the territory is beyond all maps.

To explain further, I could say that, no matter which phenomenal structure you use, which model, no matter which mental discipline you are using therefore, such a model because it is trying to define something that is beyond itself, must use a communicative process, a language, that in and of itself could never explain the territory, but at best could only give the clearest and cleanest, the most impeccable if it is a good discipline, map of a territory that exists outside of it, beyond it.

A simple and accurate way to think of this, is to imagine the idea that certain explorers travel outwardly, far beyond their country of origin, and through those travels they are able to discover new lands, new territory. Then when such voyagers return to their original place, and in trying to explain the nature of that land they saw, and the way to get to that distant country, they create maps, the most accurate maps possible for them, so that others might be able to travel to those lands themselves. The maps therefore are highly useful, all important sometimes, but they are not the territory itself, they are just a way to understand and get to that land where those intrepid scouts have gone.

This was all discussed in the last article, using my version of a map to try to define the reasons why you must discover that territory for yourself. But in doing so, while it is my hope that such an article was in and of itself concise, a point that needs to be addressed with far more precision and clarity, is that the physical senses cannot in the case of the kind of territory that inner alchemy is talking about, for example, perceive the territory.

The physical senses can only perceive the map, only the inner senses can perceive the territory.

The map is not the territory. The inner senses allow you to see the territory, the physical senses allow you to see the map. The map is useful to traverse the territory, but once you have gone far enough you must throw away the map. The map, no matter how useful and how powerful it seems to be, holds no underlying fundamental truth, the only way to truth is to perceive the territory directly yourself, to use the inner senses yourself, because everything else beyond the inner senses is in a way folly, it is just a model, a map, in broader terms the map is a kind of illusion.

The key and important point here, the reason for this article, is to explain that the physical senses can only see the map, it is only the inner senses that can see the territory.

The land that inner alchemists are trying to describe, the territory that they have travelled to, is so distant and so far, you could say, that the physical senses can never be used to perceive such a land. This is of key importance, the physical senses can only perceive the map, it is only using the inner senses that you will be able to perceive the territory that alchemy is trying to describe.

Inner alchemists therefore strive to develop their inner senses, because if they do not then they will be stuck potentially believing that the map is the territory, and this can be a costly mistake. Given enough time, it is a fatal one.

The map is very useful, it allows us to traverse and to work effectively within this dimensional space where the physical senses work relatively well. Our maps therefore are necessary and can be highly useful if used effectively, but in order to go beyond the limits of those maps, we must learn to engage our inner senses, and develop our own maps as we progress further and further.

There is no greater truth in the map. If such a thing is perceived when one studies a map of occult science, if one feels that there is some kind of underlying truth in a particular model, then the perception of such an underlying truth comes from the fact that the map is so good, that it accurately describes many of the aspects of the vastness to be found beyond this physical dimension, and being that this discipline, this model, seems to go beyond this purely physical dimension, it seems like the model is better than the purely material world, and it therefore hold some kind of fundamental truth about reality. But this can be a dangerous mistake, because in the end a map is just a map, and it is imperfect being that it is bound to this material dimension.

As such, this map then seems to, and truly does in a way to some extent, provide a kind of greater truth within physical parameters, in that thanks to it one can understand things even beyond this physical dimension. But such truth is relative as I will explain, and without understanding the use of the inner senses, those truths become obsolete the minute that they are communicated.

So, to explain this relativeness further, this instant obsolescence, I could say that for the current of inner alchemy, the only truth is energetic truth, the only foundational truth, therefore, is that which can be perceived by the inner senses only. And such perceptions are, of the moment only, they exist in the moment only, there is no past or future in them.

In other words, there are no pasts, or future projections in the perceiving of the territory using the inner senses, there is only direct perception in the infinite now moment point. As such, in accordance with inner alchemy as it is practiced by my current, we can define dogma as something that is stuck within a linear time model, that is, it is something that has a past and future, something of the physical world, something that can be perceived by the physical senses. While energetic truth, the perception of the inner senses, is something that goes beyond linear time models, beyond all material dimensional rules, and exists in an infinite moment point that is beyond the perceptions of the physical senses, and the language, the phenomenology, of physical reality, of the limited physical dimension.

The physical senses work within physical space. It is within this physical space that we communicate to each other, and such communication, being that it is happening within the physical dimension, must abide by certain rules, and the biggest rule being linear time. What this means is that in the physical dimension time is a linear event, the vastness of the now moment point is not perceivably possible for the physical senses, therefore that infinite moment point is filtered, broken apart and fed to the physical senses and the physical cognitive structure, in accordance to a linear time model, where we see the infinite moment point separated into a past, present, and a potential future.

Being that all dogma exists within the physical dimension, all dogma has a past, present, and a future. The territory described by inner alchemy on the other hand, is not bound by such linear frameworks. Such a territory exists and is part of an infinite now moment, as such any map that relies on linear time to try to describe something that is outside of such a time limitation, is flawed the minute that it was created, because the moment that it was created it attained a kind of stasis that binds it to a very limited causal framework.

A more useful way to see this, would be to say that even though a scout and adventurer might have travelled to distant territory, and may have seen incredible wonders and incredible energetic truths there, on their return to their country of origin, to their home dimension in this case, in order to describe and communicate where they have gone and what they have seen, they in essence have to create a map of that territory. But that map, by the time it is created and it is being used by others who are hoping to go to that same place that the scout discovered, is already in some ways obsolete, because even though this map is static, unchanging on the page that it has been drawn, the territory that it is describing does continue to change, is continually changing. As such, that map needs to be constantly updated, but only updated by those that can truly see, that have seen the territory. This is an infinitely important point.

As such, maps can be a dangerous thing, they can lead you astray. And in that sense then, inner alchemy tries to offset the dangers of the map by always making it clear to the practitioners of inner alchemy, that a key balancing component of the current, is the ability to right from the outset, begin to practice using the inner feelings sense.

Nothing out there is true, nothing that you look at, touch, smell, taste, or hear, using just your physical senses is true, it is just a filtered and constrained possible representation of something that was, and that continues to evolve, beyond the physical brain structure. If you would like to know more about this, I recommend reading the book, The Occult Experience.

In order to be able to begin to use the inner senses yourself, I recommend the book The Magnum Opus, a step-by-step course, there in chapter 4, I describe how to use the inner feelings sense, and that, using such a technique but extending it further and developing through your own practice, will be the only way that you will discover any fundamental truth to anything. Only through the continual use and development of the inner feelings sense, will you ever have a chance of accurately and truthfully seeing the territory yourself directly.